DOWN MEMORY LANE のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 1 - チャプター 10

The day came when he had to leave. I was moody, I made him a cheese sandwich for breakfast as he was in the room making his final preparation. He came downstairs to see me packing up His breakfast. "Baby you know you don't need to do that, you know how I feel when I eat in the morning," He said to me, I was quiet the whole time and he clearly understood I wasn't in the mood and I was still sad about him leaving. We made our way to the car as I took over the driver's seat, I checked my wristwatch, started the engine, and drove off. There was silence between us but to be honest I just had nothing to say to him. I felt numb the whole time. "Will you just talk to me at least before I go?" He broke the silence. "What do you want me to say?" I asked back. We got to the barracks, I got out to get his luggage from the back seat while he turned to my side, I felt weak as he hugged me so tight, there and there I cried so hard that I had to gasp for air. We kiss

Few days had passed, a date was set for my husband to be buried and that of his colleagues who died in the war. I was still sad and weak about the whole thing but I’d to be strong. Julie, my friend, was really helpful and she tried to support me the little she could. The day came and everyone was dressed in black. I couldn’t still believe I’d one day, any sooner be dressed up this way to mourn my husband. I’d managed to dress up in a black short gown with my hair tied up in a ponytail and my fascinator on my head. My mom came into my room, “Are you ready? She asked while she walked to me and embraced me from behind. I nodded and turned to her. And hugged her tightly. “You’ve always been a strong girl and I know you’ll be fine.” Mom continued. We made our way out to the living room. Dad and my sister, Hailey, were already waiting for me. I was a bit anxious because I didn’t know what to expect and I haven’

Monday morning, I woke up feeling happy and yet anxious. The feeling of having to meet new people at work. What does my boss look like, kind and understanding? I was an introvert and I think that’s the more reason I'd go with the flower business. I made myself a coffee, took a shower. My phone was ringing. When I was done, I went to check who had been calling my phone, it was my mom, I’m sure she’s calling to know my preparations for work today. I called her back. Hey mom, sorry I missed your call, I was in the shower, getting prepared for work. I spoke first. I was calling to check up on you and wish you a fruitful day at work. Thank you, mom, I replied hesitantly. I have to go now. Talk to you soon. I hung up. I had already selected clothes I wanted to wear for my first day. Black pants and a white body fitted shirt and a red shoe with my Gucci bag. I made sure my hair was rightly conditioned and curled. I was anxious to see myself in the mirror. It

After I had attended my sister’s grad, I was happy at least I was able to clear my head off the incident at the office. But I was still scared to resume work, who else will embarrass me like the way phoebe did. Hmmm, I need to stay away from Mr. Lucas. I agree with her. I think it’s too early to be in a situation like this one. The next day came when I had to resume work. I felt so reluctant and I was wondering what my day would be like. The people I had to face. Gosh, I’m not excited for this day. One week ago, I was happy but now it’s the opposite. I’m wondering how many more people hate me now or some who would pretend to love me. God this is so bad for me; I mean why do I have to feel this way. I sluggishly left my bed, I had my pajamas on, and went str

CHAPTER 10   And here I am, stalked between letting Teejay into my life and also telling Lucas the reason I have been avoiding him. For whatever reason I was scared, my feelings seemed unsure. I didn’t know if I had truly loved Teejay or rather if I felt the same way for my boss, still trying to figure out why I find it hard to talk things out with him.   I was seated right beside Teejay, lost in thoughts while waiting for our meals. The event earlier at the office premises kept replaying, what do I have to say to Lucas when I get back, how do I face him.   Are you okay? He broke the silence. Yeah, sure. I stuttered Thank God the meal c