Semua Bab Who to Love: Bab 11 - Bab 20

Friends.I have always wanted to have a lot of friends. I have never been hurt gaining friends in my life. I have never been this bitter over a friend before. I used to be so happy to have many friends and I am even happier to gain more.But hell, I hated how he easily asked me to become his friend as if it was the most normal thing to happen when he knew the truth about us. We were once lovers. We didn't have the closure we needed for us to end our relationship properly.Or maybe, perhaps, he did have the closure. I didn't.Perhaps, I am a fool for still wishing for him to remember me even though everything is telling that he is not going to. Not in a million years. Not when he’s always with his girlfriend. How can I even expect him to think of him when his hot model girlfriend is right in front of his eyes?I must be crazy!It’s been a week since I last spoke with Kieran and now, I’m going to the office. I didn’t wa

Kieran and I stayed inside the restaurant for a few moments more. He waited until my tears all ran dry. To be honest, I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know what to feel. All I know is that I needed to cry my heart out. Even for one last time.“Are you alright now?” Kieran asked me so softly that I think he’s trying to be careful of what he’ll tell me. I believe he’s scared of making me hurt more.I don’t know if that’s a good or a bad thing, though.I nodded and took a deep breath. “You should forget about this.” I told him.He narrowed his eyes on me. I know he’s very curious but I don’t think it’s the right time to tell him yet. He’s still hasn’t been fully recovered from his amnesia. He may seem to think that he is, but he’s not. He’s still uncertain. I can see it in his eyes.“Ashin,” he held my cheek to make me face him but

My phone is ringing incessantly because Gina is asking me to come with them to the beach. It’s actually the beach resort that Louie is managing. He offered the whole circle that he would pay for our stay in his resort.“No. I don’t want to go.” My words are marked with finality. I don’t want to go. Going there would just mean ninety percent of seeing Kieran and Bianca. I won’t risk for that ten percent of enjoying the resort.“But—”“No.” I couldn’t make her reason out. She’s a daughter of a lawyer. Hell knows no decline when she begins to reason out. “I am going to prepare for my book signing tomorrow.” I replied. “I don’t want to be tired today.”I heard her huff from the other line. I can only imagine her pouting face. “Okay. Okay. I won’t push you to come. But please, don’t be alone inside your apartment. At least

My heart didn’t reach its normal beat even after the whole car ride. I’ve been with Kieran before for a longer time than this but I can’t really explain why my heart is beating crazily like this right now. I don’t know what to do.It feels like I’ve already run out of choices and all I can do now is stay…or leave. But I can’t afford to leave him, so I must stay.Kieran glanced at me as we walked inside the restaurant of his choice. I remember this place. This is where we first ate our dinner. If he could remember me now, then did he purposely bring me here?“Are you alright?” He asked me with those dark and addicting eyes.Damn it. How can I even think straight? I wonder if this is how Anastasia Steele felt like when Christian Grey was staring into her eyes. I wonder if she felt the butterflies in her stomach flip around like there was a storm right in there.I nodded even though I know that it

I don’t know what to feel after hearing conversation. I ran back to my car and revved it and drove off to nowhere. I don’t know where to go. I don’t even know what to think.If Harold is Bianca’s cousin, then does that mean that he’s been granting her wishes? Is he always telling me to get away for his cousin to be with Kieran? I don’t know. I don’t want to think that way because Harold is such a good friend of mine. He was always there when I was in my darkest times. He’s a good man. He is, right?I heard my phone ring and it’s Kieran. I answered it and connected to the Bluetooth speaker.“Love,” his voice is still so beautiful as ever.“Kieran.” There’s a smile about to breakout from my lips. Just one word from him and everything’s right again. I don’t even care about anything when I’m with him.“What are you doing?” He asked. He seem