Lahat ng Kabanata ng Amara's Diary: When Nothing Free Ever Lasts: Kabanata 41 - Kabanata 50

She melted underneath me. Soaking into the bedsheets of our hotel suite. A sigh escaped her. I watched her misty eyes dim and return to their original indifference. She bitterly muttered. "Get off me." I pulled out, tossing the condom before lying next to her. My head turned to check the time. It was past eight. She could still make it in time for her schedule...if she ran. I turned to say something only to catch her glaring daggers at me. "Because of you, I'm late." I blinked. When I wanted to pull out earlier over you wrapped your legs around me and begged me not to stop. Yeah? It was cute on day one but now it was a serious mood killer. "...Sorry." She looked annoyed as she sat up. "Are you really? Because you don't seem sorry at all! Why are you always like this?" Right back at ya. I'm sorry that I can't help not being sorry. I do feel bad that her reputation has gone down thanks to this. She's been late to her gigs lately, whenever we're together like this it's easy to

Her eyes were like cut jewels that scratched you the moment you make eye contact. When she asked me if I wanted to come in my mind froze as it instantly went to a dirty place, but I had to consider possible cultural differences as well as the fact she seemed to personally know Kagami before cooking up an appropriate response. "Sure. Um... Thanks." Describing her simply as a cutie would be an understatement. She was underdressed now but I could already tell from all the girls I've seen before their transformation; she's already this adorable without makeup how much more would she be with it on? More importantly, so I don't fuck anything up. "What's your relationship with Kagami?" I asked as she opened the door. "He's... a friend." Her tone became gentler just now. He's in the friendzone? Hahhh, that guy has always had zero interest in girls. But he's never gone out of his way to befriend one before...my instincts are telling me to sit tight and watch. Let's see how long it takes

He was my Japanese teacher + I had to see him every day at school. It was a stressful experience as back then he got up early enough to walk with me. I came to hate his face. Whenever he asked me to eat together right after a lesson, I could never decline, because he was always polite even when I messed up my Japanese. To have patience with a person when teaching them... I find people who can do such a thing, an anomaly and it makes me feel like a piece of trash in comparison especially if I slight them or don't cooperate. That's why I couldn't decline him that time either when he invited me to his house. I didn't expect I'd be going up to his room to wake him. His Mother seemed to give up on calling to him from downstairs. When I got to the door, I heard music, a soft and soothing male voice. Did he fall asleep listening to the radio? I thought. When I knocked on the door the music continued, when I opened it, it was as if I caught him naked because when he noticed me he let out

Mrs. Fukuda called me over often. I'm not sure why, I used the opportunity to learn cooking from her. When Kagami came downstairs and saw me he'd freak out. I think, that's why every time something happened with him she'd use me. Surprisingly I was fine, since I didn't really have to say much. He got annoying though. Sometimes trying to check my Japanese and other times trying to get me to go up to his room to listen to his songs. He's an innocent guy, it's not like that. That's how I got by telling myself and was able to keep my sanity so far. ---- So listening to Azure Phoenix sing such a suggestive song made me tilt my head. (Your eyes seized my soul, beckoning me to you, had me down to please in ways I never had. Breaking all my rules, crossing boundaries like a fool. I'm in your waters and now, I'm at your mercy. Stabbed my heart with a hook, Didn't want to leave you even if I could. But the second you opened your mouth, the illusion ended. You became ugly. Sicken

It's been a while! So I'm posting a recap in case everyone's forgotten the characters. Thank you for reading if you still are reading. Azure Phoenix (Aoi Phoenix): Aoi's sound was indie while Azure was more on the rock side- but also digestable. Izanagi- a quarter german. His german blue eyes and slightly forreign looking nose easily draws many girls to become interested in him. He bleached his hair in past but currently it's more of a fiery orange with red tips. His natural hair color is an ash brown. Used to play guitar but he now plays bass. One thing that hasn't changed is that he's still a vocalist. Utaka- half french pianist who has always been popular among ladies for his baby face. Is currently dating Momo, an idol from a popular girl group but he's thinking of quitting to attend college, and focus on his dream of becoming a piano teacher so her parents will be less intimidated by him. Gen- drummer, he used to have a mohawk but he shaved it. Got his girlfriend pregnant an