Alexa POV: Beep Beep Beep Beep Beep “ugh would someone please stop that incessant beeping wait why am I not speaking out loud OMG am I dead is this heaven”! Beep Beep Beep Beep “ there it is again” I stir trying to open my eyes but I can’t, I can’t talk I can’t move I can’t even open my eyes. Wait that voice I hear voices, Colton? Colton’s POV:Doctor doctor! Come quick she moved. I was right in the middle of rubbing on her hands when she squeezed my hand doctor is she waking up? “No it’s called involuntary movement it happens”. I step aside and let him do a quick assessment as he’s shining the light into Lexie’s eyes he stops and repeats the act again and ask the nurse to Paige the head of Neuro stat! Then he turns to me and said “ it looks as though your wife is fighting against the medically induced coma we put her in I’m gonna get a second opinion to be sure but I think we can finally wake her up safely”. And in that moment I felt myself releasing the most built up breath I didn

Colton’s POV:Sitting in my home office just wrapping up a meeting for my new liquor bottle design and I’ve narrowed it down to three final sketches I will meet with each artist individually and choose the best candidate. However I seem to be having a really hard time coming up with a name. After that meeting I head out back to check on the setup for the baby shower we’ve never had one with the other kids didn’t see the logic in it when we had everything we could possibly need and the only reason I’m doing it this time around is just so she feels a little sense of normalcy. Alexa’s POV:I’m woken to the ringing of my phone and some loud banging out back that’s really starting to irritate me “hey girlie” I hear Cass say into the phone hey what’s up Cass “ I was just calling to make sure we’re still on for tonight” yes we are what time are you coming by “around six” okay great I’ll see you then and I disconnect the call and make my way into our on suite to get ready for the day. Once I’

Colton’s POV:Worry that’s all I feel in this moment I’m worried because we’ve never had to face something so terrifying that’s completely out of my hands to be able to control the outcome. Nothing like life coming and slapping some humbleness in you. I’m hurting and not just for myself for her, I’ve always been able to protect her if thing for wrong how will I help her through something I’m not even sure I can make it through? Head to the sky I’m humble praying please keep us covered!Alexa’s POV:Laying on an operating table I can’t stop crying “I didn’t want this for you little one”. Head to the sky praying please keep us covered. Just as the doctor walks in and says alright people I know this isn’t what we planned for, but we are here now let’s gets through this all healthy and alive!I couldn’t agree more Doctor I hear my husband say the next thing I feel is the local kicking in separators going up and the doctor saying alright let’s began! I smell burning flesh not a pleasant sm

Alexa’s POV:Two months later, yes I said two whole months so I’m turn I guess you can say two months and three weeks this place has been my second home. I know every nurses name on every shift who’s working on what day I’ve even made a couple of friends who I’m sure will be around for a long time. It’s amazing what you will bond over in the NICU. I’m so excited a car seat test is the only thing standing in between us officially being able to take our Angel home.So currently we’re at 6 1/2 ILB’S and 4 ounces down I’m so proud of her she is really my little twin I can’t believe it. She is however on a special milk to control the acid reflux but other than that she is as healthy as a horse. …………..A few hours later………………….We’re headed home with our Angel safely in her car seat with no breathing issues happiness is an understatement of my emotional state right now.As we pull up I notice my brothers car my parents and a few friends as well. So much for a relaxing evening with the famil

Alexa’s POV:I’m pacing around the halls like a crazy person jumping up at every door sound with the hopes of hearing some good news I’m really excited about becoming an aunt and God Mother a roll I intend to honor very seriously. About four hours later I hear it faint but I can hear it the sound of baby cries, but wait………why, why all the doctors rushing to her room if the baby is crying and……………..Robby a nurse just not so nicely escorted him out of the room! My legs move before I know what’s happening. Robby what’s wrong, how’s Cass? All he does is looks at me with a grief stricken face and tear filled eyes and shaking is head in the negative repeatedly say “but she was fine”! I ask again Robby what happened to Cass!! That’s when he snaps out of it and really vegans to cry and drop to the floor. I assume the worst and can’t help but to do the same and I do I cry until there is nothing left in me to cry. I pull myself together and call my husband to inform him and also my parents and