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           I woke up earlier than my alarm and I don’t know why. To think that I wasn’t able to have the correct amount of sleep, I’m weirdly energetic today. Dahil ba ‘to sa gatas kagabi? Speaking of what happened last night, it never left my mind. At ngayon, naaalala ko na naman kung paano halos lumuwa ang mata ko no’ng makita ko si Sidhean.             I shook my thoughts away and got ready for work. I prepared the breakfast for the royal family and prepared to go to Morning Dew. Maambon nga ngayong araw. Sinuot ko ang jacket at sumakay ng tricycle papuntang coffee shop. When I entered, si Kuya Ian lang ang bumungad sakin. Wala ring customer siguro dahil masyado pang maaga. I ordered my usual and after eating, dumagsa na rin ang mga drivers at mga early birds na mga estudyante. Naging busy ako hanggang sa natapos ang shift ko. 

           Time flies fast. We are nOw on the second quarter of the school year and exams are coming soon. One of the prerequisite to proceed on the next school year is research. We have to pass this subject by performing a qualitative research. I have a topic in mind buT as much as I would love to work alone, we are required to do it in pairs.             Okay na sa aking makapareha si Aesther pero gusto ng karamihan na random selection para daw fair. Napabuga ako ng hangin dahil sa kaartehan nila. Kung ako nga lang ang papipiliin, mas gugustuhin ko pang mag-isa na lang.             I was uninterested of the pairing until I heard my surname called.             “Bartolome, you will be paired with…,” panimula ng

            Pagkatapos naming kumain ay nagyaya na si Aesther na umuwi. Ayaw pa sana nina Sidhean pero wala na silang magawa. Ayaw ko rin namang hayaan umuwi mag-isa si Aesther. Lumabas kami at naglakad papuntang main road. Doon naghihintay ang driver ni Aesther. Pagdating namin sa intersection, kailangan naming maghiwalay dahil hindi kami parehas ng daan pauwi.             “Ikaw ba Mav? Saan ka?” tanong ko kay Maverick.             “Ah, doon din ang daan ko pauwi,” sagot niya na tinuro ang daan sa kabila na siyang dadaanan din nila Aesther.             “Oh, eh sama ka na samin,” aya ni Aesther sa kanya.        &nb

            The week started off in a hectic way. We prepared for the defense which we nailed later on, we got busy with workloads and academic activities such as choosing for the Supreme Student Government in which Maverick won as the president, and I realized I wasn’t myself the past few weeks.               I have been guillible when I am with Sidhean but gets back to being consumed by anxieties when I am alone. And I hate it. I hate the idea of being emotionally dependent to anyone. I don’t like the anxiousness that I feel whenever I think that Sidhean will soon get tired of me and will eventually leave me.               That’s why I finally decided. I will draw the line. I should bear in mind that he is just a friend and nothing more.  

              Kinabukasan, naging mabuti naman ang pakiramdam ko. May nararamdaman pa rin akong kirot sa paa ko pero hindi na gaanong masakit. Pinilit ko kasi talagang huwag itong igalaw kagabi at naka-elevate lang ito buong magdamag. Mabagal akong kumilos para maghanda sa pagpasok sa Morning Dew. When I finished, I went there.               “Good Morning po,” bati ko kay Kuya Ian nang pumasok ako.               “Oh, anong nangyari sa paa mo?” tanong niya nang makitang paik-ika ang lakad ko.               “Ah, ito? Wala kuya, natapilok lang ako kagabi,” sagot ko sa kanya.       &n