My Heart Hates Me のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 41 - チャプター 50

"Sir, one of our models' has been missing for two days now," Sora said."Not now, Sora. My mind doesn't want any new news right now, am I clear?" Kirito said as he looked into the file."Yes sir" Sora said. But Kirito wasn't listening anymore.'She will see inside me eventually. What if she doesn't like what she sees? What will I do 'cause I can't unlove you now.I should've seen this coming. I shouldn't have fallen so deep. Should I rise or should I fall? Because a part of me doesn't want to show you the monster in me, but there's a part of me who wants to just rip apart all the walls for you and pull you inside in my heart, to make you a monster too.It's so complicated. I can't understand myself anymore. Can I pull away from you. Because no matter how much of a monster I am or no matter what all I've done up until now-- I still want to be the best person in your life. My monsters love you, Vivian. This is bad. I feel like I'm gonna get a panic a

"Why would you feel hungry in the middle of the night?" Vivian asked as she took out a tray of persimmons while Kirito sat on the chair in front of the dining table "Is everything alright?""I usually get up in the middle of the night""This never happened before though""I usually drink alone in the balcony when it happens"Then let's drink together""Shut up. I don't want a hurricane in here. Besides, I like drinking alone" Vivian just smiled and sat opposite to him. The clock struck two in the morning. Vivian yawned as she picked up a persimmon."Christmas is coming" Vivian puckered out the persimmon peel "You said you'd take me to the Philippines!" Kirito sat and ate a piece of it."Philippines.""I have been meaning to ask--Are you somehow related to the Philippines?""Why do you think that?""Because, you can speak Filipino--""I don't. I only know a few words.""I see. By the way, did you like these?"

Kurosava searched through the old and weary objects kept inside the old attic. There were old toys, books, pictures and all other useless and rusty stuff.The attic was filled with cobwebs and rats. Two huge mirrors were supported by the walls. It looked like an old child's playland-- provided how many toys it had. From dolls to mecha robots. There were drawing books and everything was laying there in the worst conditions they could be in.Finally, he found a huge picture of Mr Hiomi and Mrs Hiomi. Kirito, about three years old, sat in his mother's arms while looking at the camera."I would have believed it was Kiroto..." He had green eyes just like Mr and Mrs Hiomi. The bottom of the frame read "Hiomi family""I didn't know your eye colors change when you grow up" Kurosava said with a wicked smile. He clenched the frame tightly "My stupid brother giving the entire enterprise to this brat... This brat who is not even his own blood!" He threw it aside and

"Ethan! Ina is back!" Ethan's mother said as she got inside that tin box shelter. Her brother or Ethan's father sat on the cot inside the room. She stood before him and looked under the cot."He's sleeping" Ruso-- as what the people called him, said."Okay" She said and went towards the stove. "Did you eat?" She asked as she poured some water into a glass "Yeah about that, you haven't been cooking very well"She froze and turned towards him. He sat before her and touched her face. "Your husband needs good food to function, doesn't he?" He said.She nodded. "And our son needs good food too. So earn more money, work harder, steal or beg-- I don't care. I just want the results" He said and grabbed her wrist."You have been slacking off lately" He said as he twisted her little finger. She groaned with pain but he covered her mouth "Shut up. Do you wake up our son?" He said and broke her finger.Tears left her eyes but no voice left her throat. H

Kurosava looked at Ethan as he signed the files he got "Not this one. I told them to change this. I'm not accepting anything vulgar like this" Ethan said."I personally like this idea though""I'm the businessman here," Ethan said."Yes.""You may leave now" Ethan said as he got up and wore his coat."Are you heading out?""Yes" Ethan said "Kirito, you should take some rest. You're overworking nowadays" Kurosava said "It's fine. I'm paid for working""But still, you should listen to me, Kirito," Kurosava said. "Sora, get me the files by night. I'll be at the ramps till then. Today's the first show of the new season. Make sure nothing goes wrong" Ethan said "Yes sir" Sora said."Kirito" Kurosava said "Oh! I'm sorry. I didn't realize you were an expert for my life! I'd ask you to continue so that I could take notes. But currently I'm busy, you should be too. You're paid too after all" Ethan said with a smile.Kurosava just