Lahat ng Kabanata ng She's Not For You: Kabanata 21 - Kabanata 30

ANNA I should start by saying, I'm wasn't impressed by Rivers so called training performance on Monday.  I knew exactly why he did it. Michael is bothering him big time.  As much as I tell him we're just friends, I can't make him trust Michael.  Which led me to our little hookup Monday night.   I knew his wolf needed to be satisfied and he needed to be shown that I was still with him.  I hope I proved that. It seems like it, since there have been no further awkward exchanges between the boys for the last two days.   I've kept River fed, if you will, with secret meetings during the day and night.  We've gotten pretty good at hooking up.  I'm surprised how many places there are in this training center to sneak a hot, sweaty sex session.   Thursday morning, I walk into the shower room and turn on the shower.  While I wait for the water to heat up, Fiona, Laura and one of the

RIVERThe room is heavy with concern.  There's a feeling if dread, fear and anger in the air.Alphas, betas, all the way down to Gamma packed the conference room.  I found Zeke and Blade at the back leaning against the wall.  They both nod.  I lean with them facing the front where higher ups from Falcon Ridge and Caledon stood waiting for everyone.Once satisfied that everyone was here, they started the briefing.Alpha Eric read the intelligence report.  "At 0900 this morning a group of unknown assailants, armed with silver bullets and explosives, attacked the prison building of the Falcon Ridge security unit.  It's unclear at this time how they managed to bypass security measures.  During the attack, 10 guards and 15 ranking members were injured.  One guard was killed.  The motive for the attack was to release Cole Karver.  He is, as of now, the only escapee at large.We b

RIVERI slowly walk into the barracks where Anna is.I have no idea what I'm going to do.  She was crazed.  Attacked Cassidy like it was her mission.  Cassidy will heal, but it was brutal.  Her face was all puffed, nose broken, blood everywhere.  I'm pretty sure, if me and Blade weren't there, Anna would've released her wolf.I can't let this go either.  The whole training field had front row seats.  This is my job.  My duty to make sure the rules are enforced.  I don't want to do this.  I don't want to punish her for what she did, but I have to.  I walk into the bunk house.  I have my head hanging and my hands behind my back.  My boots making thud noises as I walk in.  They almost echo in the quiet of the building.  I lift my head and glance at Anna whose sitting on her bunk with her arms on her knees.  Her eyes catch mine.  She looks scared.  I t

RIVER "FUCK!"  I scream out in my room.  Throwing whatever was close by.   Seeing Anna had my wolf and me losing our shit.   I couldn't do it.   I couldn't talk to her.  My guilt was too strong.  My pain was so near the surface, she'd see it in an instance.  And I didn't want her too.  I wanted to just walk away.  Spare her from the feelings of blaming me for hurting her. When she begged to talk me, I stood my ground.  I said I wasn't going to let her forgive me and I meant it.  I broke my promise to her and to David.  I promised to never hurt her.  Never allow her to get hurt.  To protect her at all costs.  But she did get hurt.  By my fucking hands. I grabbed a lamp, screamed out a growl and threw it against the wall.  It smashed into pieces and they fell to the floor. I guess my dad heard it and rushed in.  My room was trash

RIVERI've been pulling my hair out this week.  Lashing out, snapping at everyone.  My wolf, and myself, are so angry.  All the time.  I just want to kill things.I find myself not the same trainer as I was before in training.  I'm short with the recruits, resentful, demeaning.  Picking on weaker wolves to take my frustrations on. I can't get my head straight.  "Davis!"  I yell.  I march over to the tall kid who's been taking a beating all morning during spar practice.  "What the fuck?  Get your lazy ass up and fucking get to work!"  I grab him by the shirt and lift him off the ground."Sir..yes..sir.."  He struggles in my grip to stand and clearly scared. I can feel the other recruits eyes on me.  I point to Davis. "This isn't a game.  Quit fucking around."  "Yes, sir."  He stands wide eyed at my outburst.Zeke must have seen the di