RIVER
"FUCK!" I scream out in my room. Throwing whatever was close by.
Seeing Anna had my wolf and me losing our shit.
I couldn't do it. I couldn't talk to her. My guilt was too strong. My pain was so near the surface, she'd see it in an instance. And I didn't want her too. I wanted to just walk away. Spare her from the feelings of blaming me for hurting her.
When she begged to talk me, I stood my ground. I said I wasn't going to let her forgive me and I meant it. I broke my promise to her and to David. I promised to never hurt her. Never allow her to get hurt. To protect her at all costs. But she did get hurt. By my fucking hands.
I grabbed a lamp, screamed out a growl and threw it against the wall. It smashed into pieces and they fell to the floor.
I guess my dad heard it and rushed in. My room was trash
ANNA "Riker! Hurry up with those dishes!" The angry head of the kitchen slams more dishes on the counter as I wash the ones in the sink. I've been on auto pilot for 3 days. My kitchen duty started on Monday. I'll spend the next month, washing dishes in the mornings and joining training in the afternoons. Though I'm grateful for the distraction, it's really not doing much. My thoughts are constantly about River. How he hates me. How I humiliated him. How I forced him to deal the harsh punishment I received. And I deserved every lash. I knew better. I should have controlled myself. Lesson learned, but it was too late. I lost River. An Alpha like him, can't have this kind of embarrassment. My behavior isn't expectant of a Luna and I'm sure that's what River is thinking. I'm positive that's why he ended it. I'm worthless to him now. I've embarrassed h
RIVERI've been pulling my hair out this week. Lashing out, snapping at everyone. My wolf, and myself, are so angry. All the time. I just want to kill things.I find myself not the same trainer as I was before in training. I'm short with the recruits, resentful, demeaning. Picking on weaker wolves to take my frustrations on. I can't get my head straight."Davis!" I yell. I march over to the tall kid who's been taking a beating all morning during spar practice. "What the fuck? Get your lazy ass up and fucking get to work!" I grab him by the shirt and lift him off the ground."Sir..yes..sir.." He struggles in my grip to stand and clearly scared.I can feel the other recruits eyes on me. I point to Davis. "This isn't a game. Quit fucking around.""Yes, sir." He stands wide eyed at my outburst.Zeke must have seen the di
ANNAIt's been a full two weeks since I've had any contact with River. I don't even look his way anymore.My kitchen duty has been a distraction, like I said, but Michael, he's the best.He's been extremely attentive to my needs. Given me space when I need it. Consoling me when it gets too much. He's not pressuring me either. He's just here. By my side, taking what I throw at him with compassion and understanding.Truthfully, I needed it. Someone to just listen. To understand what I'm feeling. On some level, I feel Michael gets me more then most people. I feel a strong connection between us. Like he could guide me though any storm and protect me better then anyone ever could.I don't want to delve too much into it though. I'm not ready to go all in. But just being with him has made this whole thing so much easier.Tha
ANNAIt shouldn't bother me. It shouldn't irritated me.But here I am. Sitting with Michael on my porch swing. Secretly irritated.I know I'm a hypocrite, but how dare he hook up after telling me he wanted to fix things. With a chick barely 18."What's wrong?" Michael asks as he plays with my hair.I shake my head. "Nothing."He moves his arm from behind me and sits up. "No. Somethings wrong. You were distracted at the bar. Now, you seem off. What's up?"I play with my coffee cup. "I'm just a little irritated today."He sighs. "It's because you saw River with another woman, isn't it?"I furrow my brow. "No."He tilts his head. "Anna, come on. I know you. You hated seeing him with that girl."I roll my eyes. "Fine. Yes. It pissed me off me a little."He furrows his
RIVERI will be honest. I didn't think I'd ever be able to function without Anna by my side, but Emily? Man, that girl is all kinds of sexy. Her scent intoxicates me. She's fun, hilarious, curious, energetic, smart. The feel of her body on mine is just as amazing as Anna's.Everything about Emily intrigues me. I want to do everything with her....and to her, if you know what I mean.She was supposed to be my rebound hook up, but it seems to be turning into something more.At the beach, I didn't plan on bumping into Anna and Michael. I could tell Anna wasn't comfortable with Emily there. I probably didn't help by being all mushy, but I can't help it. Being with Emily brings that out in me. Is it because she's new, different? Is it because I can show her off rather than hide her away? Is it something else? I don't know. I do know that after Anna, there's something
MICHAEL"So you're ok with this." I sit in bed, waiting for Anna to finish up in the bathroom.She finished brushing her teeth, turned out the light and headed to her side. She's fucking adorable in her sleep shorts and tank top."Of course. Why wouldn't I be?" She climbs into bed and I cuddle her on my chest."Oh I don't know. Maybe because a couple of days ago, you couldn't stand him dating other people? Just seems like a brush off. Like you're just bottling or something." I put my hand behind my head."I'm ok Michael. Really. Yeah, it's a bit upsetting, but what can I do. Nothing. So I'm forgetting about it and just concentrating on us. It's over. No more wasting energy on it." She flicked her light off."Ok." I say with apprehension. "As long as you're really ok."She giggles and gives me a kiss. "Really. I
ANNAI was informed on what was happening when I got to the afternoon training session after my kitchen duty. Apparently I'm a yellow shirt for this paintball war game.After being told how we were all going to play this, we take our positions. Infiltrating the woods at our staring point. There's no real base to defend. So the plan is just to push the other side out, taking as many out as we go.We all spread out in smaller teams of two to four. Skulking through the trees quietly.Michael is the leader of our little foursome. He takes point. Davis and myself are in the middle and Franco is covering our rear.We were all moving with stealth through the brush when Michael throws up his hand, stopping us in our tracks and signalling to crouch.I hear twigs snap. I pop up from behind the bush were hiding behind to try to sneak a look.Three green shi
RIVERAlright, so here's the thing.I know making that bet with Anna will get me in a tiny bit of trouble. On one hand, if I lose, I have to deal with whatever Anna comes up with and on the other, if I win, I have to tell my girl I can't hang with her because I'm having to babysit my ex on our Saturday. I probably should have thought it through, but what can I say, I love a challenge and I'll admit, I may not have been thinking with my brain at the time. It doesn't help that Anna's challenge is right up my alley. If she wants me, she'll have to catch me. And I'm here for it.I'm really not sure if Emily will like the thought of me hanging with my ex all day. I know I'd have a big problem with it. I also know the thought of it, must be driving Michael up the wall. Can't say I don't like that.So I should just give Anna the win, for Emily's sake. I can't go breaking her heart just