I wasn’t sure what I had expected tonight. But for Collin to take me to a kids basketball game for the Boys & Girls Club that he is an assistant coach for wasn’t on my list of possibilities. It now suddenly makes perfect sense. Like everything makes so much sense. Why Collin doesn’t want to take trig and why that math level wouldn’t matter to his future.  But also why he’s an utter child at times, always goofing around at school. He spends his free time with fourth graders. It’s all so clear. So utterly adorably clear.  I didn’t even care that the game ended up being canceled. I thought we’d leave and go to the Starbucks I saw not far from some coffee and then end the date cause of the weather.  But instead, Collin surprised me with an impromptu dance party for two. It was sweet and cute and a sledgehammer to the walls I built.  I was smiling like a fool as I got into the house. However, my smile faded when I saw James

Hate is a strong word. And I reserve the use of it for very select individuals. For example, I HATE Brant Jones. I hate him with the fire of a thousand suns. Well, a new name has been added to my hate list. Ryōta Shiraishi has taken the second slot on my list. And he is uncomfortably close to tying Brant as the worst person I’ve ever had the displeasure of meeting. I’d have laid that old man out if I hadn’t wanted to get in trouble at the hospital. He’d get a room of his own.  What kind of parent thinks it’s okay to cut their child off from anyone but them? That’s toxic shit right there.  I spent the rest of Sunday researching laws regarding child abuse. I swear if I find he’s done anything illegal, I will make sure he pays for it. So far, I’ve turned up nothing. And given what the Frost boys had to say, they’ve made no headway either. Though I did get to put Jane in her place. I’m so over her shit.  And wit

I don’t like that he has a point. I don’t want to think about how much trouble being friends with Brant could someday bring my brother. Brant always finds a way to push blame from himself to others. I don’t want that to be James’ wake-up call. I don’t want him getting in trouble, especially with the law, to be how he learns his lesson about Brant. I just don’t know how to get through to James for him to wake up sooner. “As sweet, I suppose it is that you are worried… if that’s the right word… for James. I’ll deal with him. And if he doesn’t learn before it’s too late….” I frowned as we hurried through the cold into the hospital. “He’ll learn it the hard way. And as his sister, I will be there. I will pull him back to his feet and help dust him off.” I sighed. Collin sighed, shaking his head. “I guess I won’t understand it. Being an only child and all. You oddly have more patience for him than you do anyone else. He should seriously count

Collin is the biggest dork in the greater Boston area. His reaction to me agreeing to be his girlfriend was hilarious and adorable. However, I was given so much shit from my coworkers after he left. The following day as I was getting ready to leave with James to wait at the bus stop, my breath caught in my lungs. Collin was leaning on his car with that same dopey grin on his face. “Morning, Red!” He greeted. “Thought you might appreciate a ride.” “You’re one of those morning people, aren’t you?” I frowned at how cheery he was. “Not exactly. Just been in a good mood since yesterday.” He shrugged. “What is going on? What happened yesterday?” James questioned, furrowing his brow. “Not your business, but Collin asked me out yesterday, and I said yes.” I shrugged. “You did WHAT!?” James shouted. “Dude, keep it down. Are you getting in or what? I had to give up shotgun for this!” Justin shouted, poking his out the backseat window. “Yes! The horror h

While I am over the moon that Riko is no longer under her father’s tyrannical rule, I couldn’t get my mind off what happened after her call. I should have focused on texting the girls about visiting. Instead, my mind is on Collin. Once he left, I hurried back to my room, locking the door. I know I left him hanging. But he’s not the only one that was left unfulfilled. I shocked myself by going that far with him. I’d thought I would feel the usual panic and fear when he pulled my hips flush to him so I could feel his hard-on. But it didn’t. I didn’t feel panic or anxiety. No, I felt hunger, desire, a need I haven’t really felt in so long. I gave into that feeling until it started to scare me. Because as good as it felt, I knew if things stayed on that path, I was heading to an area that probably would trigger me. I don’t think I’m ready for that. Plus, my moms and dumb brother are home. I was lucky that mamá convinced mom to let Collin come up to my room, let alone with the door clo