Leaving home is not an easy decision. Choosing this path doesn't mean I love Dad and Allyssa any less, or that they weren't good enough reasons for me to stay. This is hard, but I have to do this to save myself. I've reached to a point where I feel worthless and have lost the will to live. This isn't healthy, and I've considered suicide many times. The only thing stopping me is my fear of God and my love and respect for my Mom. Seeing Mom fight for her life, while I'm healthy but want to end mine, is profoundly embarrassing. I know my Mom will be the first one to get disappointed if I do that. So for me to survive, I need to be away from the people who keep on causing me pain.I know I'm not suicidal, but if I die, so be it. I won't fight or beg for my life if it's threatened. I'm so exhausted from fighting. I feel insignificant and alone, having experienced despair and pain often. So what if I'm gone? No one will care, anyway.Maybe I need new surroundings, a new perspective, new re
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