I slide out of his arms, arranging my wayward top from his ministrations on his chest, and hop off the table, I can’t look at him or my hands as I escape to the other end of the room, suddenly very ashamed at my lack of control and because I know the tips of my claws would be gleaming with blood for the second time today. “It’s fine” I hear Zayne say. “It’s not fine!” I blinked repeatedly swallowing past the painfully hard lump in my throat, “I’m not fine” I whispered admitting it broke something in me. But it’s the truth, what’s the use of denying it now? I bite my swollen upper lip between my teeth as my sight becomes glassy. “I feel like I’m going crazy Zayne. I’m losing it” I say to the door as tear rolls down my cheek. I don’t hear him but a moment later, Zayne wraps his arms around me from behind and a sob leaves my chest. “Shh… it’s alright princess” he turns me around until my face is against his chest. I don’t hold him back though. I can’t. Not when I just hurt him with th

I sense him before I see him as Oliver and I get back to the arena after our run. The others who were way ahead of us must have already taken their things and left. Strangely enough, I’ve been expecting him, with the way we left things off yesterday, I’ve been hoping to avoid him, already planned on how I’m not going to go anywhere near the compound for some time, at least until I have everything figured out. Heat floods my face in embarrassment as I recall how brazen I'd acted yesterday, talking to my Alpha like that. I'd like to think it was bravery, and fire in my stomach that prompted me to act as I had, but it wasn't, crazy, I was crazy. He makes me so crazy I forget myself when he's around me. It's also why I can't face him now. I knew it would only be a matter of time before he came looking for me, I just didn't think it would be so soon. Oliver rubs my back as I’m bent over, hands braced on my knees to get more air in my lungs and buy myself some more time “See you later

Thank the Goddess above there’s still some left when I get down. I help myself to a decent portion and a large slice of bread. I’m just sipping the last portion of my soup when Mara joins us. Like Esther, I don’t know her really well so I just give a polite smile and then proceed to tip my bowl halfway up so I can get every last bit. “Well, why are you smiling?” I hear Esther ask, with a quick look I confirm that she is indeed smiling, a cheshire grin on her lips. “Did you finally get Levi to fuck you?” Who’s Levi? I want to ask but again, don’t really know her, so it might be kind of rude so I bring my spoon to my lips and finish off the last of my meal. She waved her hand and scoffed, “That’s old news, I’ve moved on. But you won’t guess who I ran into on my way here” she gasped and fanned herself with the palm of one hand, her eyes rolling back in what I can only describe to be ecstasy. I half pay attention to them as I cross to the sink to wash my plate. Her cheeks look fl

The next day after training, more like getting my ass kicked by Naya, I shower, ate, and then take my time getting to the compound. I half hoped Zayne won’t be there when I get to the house, so I can just use that as an excuse but I sense that won’t be the case when I get closer to his office. Great. I knock on his door twice “Crazy wolf reporting for duty” The door opens a moment later “very funny” he says with a quirked eyebrow. I cross my hands across my chest “Can’t you see me laughing?” He inhales, exhaled then shrugs his muscled shoulders “Let’s go” Confused, I step back. “Go? where?” I thought we were doing calming exercises? “You’ll see” He tips his head motioning for me to come with him, I’m frowning when he leads me downstairs and outside. I try to keep up with his large strides as we leave the compound and into the woods. “Stop looking at me like that,” he says with a small laugh. I know I’m giving him really suspicious looks but who can blame me? he’s leading me d

I’m a little surprised when I notice Zayne standing at the side of the arena on Monday, he hasn’t come to watch us train for some time now. At least we are almost done because I don’t want to imagine the ass-kicking I would have to receive and it would totally be his fault, you don’t have to be a genius to notice how distracted I get whenever he’s around. I just can’t help it, my mind and my eyes, and my thoughts just keep wandering over to him. I wonder, is he looking at me? Did he see that cool move I just did? Does he notice I've improved from the last time he was here, all the while praying he didn’t see the mistakes that get me on my ass? I exchange a series of blows with Naya, ducking beneath her swing and going in with a double hit. She blocks one and steps sides the other. Colin claps a moment later signaling the end of today’s training. “Keep working on your upper body strength” Naya comments before leaving, her ponytail swinging as she walks. I go to the side to