I swear my dick is aching from the amount of times it's going up and down just in her proximity, it's like she's doing it on purpose, which she might actually be because she apparently finds it an ego boost. I've never been someone who has to jerk off daily, but this week I've actually had to do it in the toilets at school too, just to get it to go down, I don't know what to do. Lloyd's been telling me all week just to make a move on her, he says she'll be receptive to it, but I don't know, she teases me and stuff, but she teases them too, I don't think she's actually interested in me and I don't want to make myself look stupid. Tonight we're all going to the cinema straight after school before I have to leave them to go to work and I'm thinking maybe I could try something simple, maybe put my arm around her, or

"What are friends for?"   The words repeat in my brain as I drive around, taunting me. How could I have been so happy only twenty-four hours ago? We kissed, it was the best kiss of my life, granted it was my first real kiss, but still, I'm fairly sure as kisses go that was phenomenal. So how could she not feel the same? I told the boys I was going to work and to call me for a lift when they wanted to leave, but after seeing her messing around on the bed with that guy, I just had to get out of there before I did something stupid.  There's this piercing pain in my chest and I'm fairly sure it's what heartbreak feels like, either that or I'm having an actual heart attack, and no matter what I try to think about, my brain just keeps repeating those words.

The rain pounds on the roof of my car, my wipers can't go fast enough to keep up with the water running down the windscreen but I cannot wait to get to school and see my green eyed brunette. I can still feel her lips on mine, like they've burned the memory of themselves onto my own over the weekend. Lloyd and Mason have been relentless with their teasing ever since Kim left last night and I've threatened to pull over and throw them out of the car half a dozen times since we set off this morning. Kian's oddly quiet, but he races out of the car as soon as I park and Mark's waiting for him by the door, so I guess whatever they argued about has passed. "Who's that with Kim?" Mason points through the side window and Kim is running through the rain, dragging after her, the guy she was rolling around on her sister's bed with. Both of them are laughing and she's holding an umbrella out of his reach, stomping in a puddle to splash him while he tries to take it from her. My stomach feels

I thought I hated the rumours that Kim was dating someone else, but somehow the ones about me being amazing in bed are worse.   How am I meant to do what they say I can do when I've never done any of that before? I have no idea what I'm meant to do.   Not for the first time I feel like I've missed out on being a stupid kid who messes around, Mason and Lloyd have plenty of experience with this sort of thing, but it's not like I can ask them or maybe I should for Kim. I feel really inadequate, she's going to be so let down if we ever actually get to that sort of thing if I don't figure something out soon. "Oi oi, Jakey baby. What the hell have you and Kim been up to?" Lloyd pulls me into a hug beside the car. "I'm so proud, you know how many girls have come up to me asking if I'm

I'm addicted to Kim, every time I see her, it gets stronger and I want more and more. I can't think of anything else, she's featuring in some fairly dirty dreams most nights and everything she does is somehow turning sexual in my mind.Like right now, she's chewing on the end of her pen whilst listening to the teacher and all I can see is her lips when they were sucking on my cock last night.It's getting me harder by the second and I'm not sure what to do. I can't stand up because everyone will see, but I can't stay here all day, so I try to think of other things. The obvious being what the teacher's talking about, but that somehow leads back to the fact that Kim's sitting here beside me sucking on her pencil. I do math's questions in my head and it starts to go down, but then I realise it's going down and suddenly, maybe because I'm thinking about it and the