“You’re so fucking hardheaded. Why can’t you just stay and take care of Leira? I shouldn’t have let you leave. Damn it.” I heard some murmurs and curses as I was forcing myself to open my eyes, but my head is too heavy for me to move even my brows. I felt like I was glued the moment I tried moving my body.I tried activating my ears fully but all I could hear is a buzzing sound mixed with a man’s voice, and I know it is from the man I once loved. His voice changed a little bit, but I know it’s him. The only thing that made the frustration from my system got increased is the fact that I can’t hear him clearly. I tried moving my body but it feels like it was being covered with heavy loads for I can’t even lift my finger. My body is aching as if it was being placed to a flame. Damn this! What is happening to me?!I can sense everything but not that clear and I can’t even move, like damn!“If only you know how it is so difficult for me to act this way. If only you know how it pains me w

It’s been almost three hours since I woke up emotionless in this four-cornered empty hospital room. I can’t help but wonder what I did in my past life in order for me to suffer this kind of life I have right now. My body is still numb for me to lift a finger, and even if it’s not, I will still not move for I am so tired of everything. I am so sick of my situation. I think, I suffered enough, I’ve had enough, and hope this is enough. I am going crazy if this will not stop, and I don’t want that to happen. I pressed my lips together with an emotionless feature when the door got opened, revealing my husband’s vulnerable and tired sight. I didn’t diverted my eyes to his direction and just looked at the wall like I haven’t looked at it for decades. I am fully aware that my eyes right now is filled with emptiness, stuck with nothingness. I can’t even bare looking at myself on the mirror, for I will always remember how that old filthy man licked my fucking neck. Even that is just a MERE ex

“You should have rest. Damn it.” He cussed under his breath with a clenching jaw, making me almost heaved upon holding myself together, for the mint fragrant smell coming from his mouth invaded my nostrils which is so addicting. No, I shouldn’t have think about it. I need to stop fantasizing him.If I could only slap my mind, I already did it.I still remained silent with a very pressed lips and my tongue was placed behind my teeth, for me not to say anything even my words are for complains and such. “Stay still,” he commanded, but I didn’t followed him and tried to tilt my body for him not to be the anchor of it, for him not to control it. “I said, stay still. Damn hardheaded wife,” added with the lowest voice he has, for he is fully aware Leira is just beside us, peacefully sleeping after the long hours of doing her tantrums. I know he is just holding the last rope of his patience while holding me with gentle, which is so unusual.With my eyes still silled with emptiness, I tried

After that serious talk with Tangerine, she bid her goodbye for the reason that she still have lots of works to do, but she gave me an assurance that she will visit me again or set a schedule for us to have an alone time together. It’s been two days since I got discharged from the hospital together with Leira, and here I am, thinking what to do upon watching lots of maids who are roaming around the mansion. They were busy doing their whatsoever, and that made me feel so dizzy upon thinking they will be doing that for decades. What the heck is happening? I am not used to this kind of setup. I am already okay of having only Leira and Steffano in this huge mansion, taking a grip on myself upon finding a way on how to finish cleaning the huge mansion in just a day. And then, boom. This happened. How ironic.I was just sitting with boredom, looking at them cleaning to and forth. Don’t they have time for a break? They had been doing that since I don’t know when.Leira, on the other hand i

I walk without my consciousness in the hallway while my both hands were busy tying my hair in a messy bun. My eyes are still not fully awake due to what happened last night, but I have no choice but to start my day and get up to bed, for the reason that Leira will never stop bugging me around until I open my freaking eyes. Good thing she left after I stood up, so I then did my morning rituals, took a quick shower and wore my sleeveless black top and high-waisted pants since that’s all I have in my luggage, before going out of my room. My wounds were very visible and I no longer put a bandage on it since it is now healed but not fully. The reason why until now, my eyes keeps itself from closing is because of Leira’s naughtiness. Steffano had no choice but to do whatever the kid wants since she started whining. So, he stayed and slept with us last night. Good thing Leira is in the middle, but still, I could not sleep upon knowing I was lying the same bed with Steffano. The worst thi