Chapter 30: Barbeque

I was silent for the whole day upon watching them having fun in front of me as if nothing happened lately. Leira came back to playing after being drowned in the pool, and here I am, sitting with peace, thinking how did my breakdown happened?

All I did is to hug myself, think how to make myself feel better for me to end this day with a smile on my face. I took the glass of water Steffano prepared beside me in case I am thirsty. That’s what he said.

I didn’t expected to experience that kind of breakdown again. I thought, I am fully healed after another trauma, but I guess, I am still stuck by that certain trauma.

Do I really deserve to feel and experience this kind of life?

As I was looking at Leira who came back to playing beside the pool, her mother’s eyes instantly captured my mind, so I tightened my grip to the handle of the bench and took a deep breath for me to calm down again.

I can’t help but to reminisce the happening of me, being in a certain car accident with Leira’s mo