100LanaIf it’s true then I was gone. I was busted to live anymore. If Armando was to hear about this I would be much more than trouble. Pregnant? With some other man’s child? I did everything to avoid it. I even bribed Mary to steal birth-control pills for me, how come I got pregnant. Argh, I wanna vanish my existence. If the pregnant part was real, I would really jump off the cliff. I couldn’t prepare myself for the bloodlust of my children or this foetus. This unborn had to die or Armando would kill him and me. I knew how far he could go. He was a maniac in my case. And as far as he was possessive about me being only his. I could predict I would pay a big price for Nathan’s deed. “Good to see you, Mr. Knightley, how may I help?” Malinda’s voice rang in my ear like a driller screwing my head. Though she had a velvet voice but right now, she was the person I needed to stay away from. Her clicks of heels grew louder as she came closer to me and Nathan who had been playing with my h

102LanaI wasn’t ready for this night. My heart was racing horribly in my ribcage. Something was not right, something would go wrong and someone was going to pay for it terribly—maybe this child in my womb. Maybe tonight I would be stabbed by one of Nathan’s bitchy cousins who would accuse me of seducing him, just like Armando’s cousin did back in Spain. I prayed to God for the abortion and yet I tried to convince one of the doctors during the clinic visit but no one agreed without Nathan’s approval. My heart just said this child won’t see this world. It would die. I just didn’t want to go through with the stabbing pain once again. I wasn’t that strong to bear pains anymore. I had enough and if this time, anyone would try to harm me, I would end myself with my sinful hands. This was it, this was the solution to end my problems. Maybe, after all the while God wanted me to end myself. He gave me enough clues yet I delayed realising them. It had been three hours since I was continuou