JORDAN- I was angry and wanted to tell him that I can leave too and not to take me for granted. It was hard but I can’t live with him like a hostage and get treated like his pet, I deserved to be loved and have to take stand for myself or else I can’t expect him to love me. His words pierced my heart and I could see him in a horrible state, I didn’t want to leave him like this but had to. I couldn’t accept the fact that, after so much we’ve gone through, how can he think of killing me? My words and emotions meant nothing to him, I had to become cold or else I wouldn’t be able to leave him. I walked past him and didn’t want to look back otherwise I will find myself in his arms, I cried all the way when I was supposed to be happy. I was free and could do anything I want but still it wasn’t enough to put a smile on my face. Lee’s crying state never left my mind and I couldn’t stop my tears too. I was missing him, I was missing his touch on my body, his kisses and his useless things he

JORDAN- Lee left me in the doctor’s cabin and stood beside me, I was getting uncomfortable because I had just encountered my man sleeping with him. “You shouldn’t blame Lee.” He said and I ignored him not bothering to believe another word coming out of his mouth. “He woke up, and forgot everything instead kept on recalling what was missing in his room. I could sense it; he was talking about you and I never saw him this miserable.” He said and I looked at him trying the understand the situation. “I should’ve stopped him as I was aware that he is imagining you, but I couldn’t. He is a complete wreck without you.” he spoke again and I couldn’t believe my ears. “That’s between us, mind your own business.” I said turning my back towards him, I was processing everything and got really scared because it was about Lee’s psychological situation. “It’s my business if he’s going to kill himself at the cemetery.” Cole stood up looking at me with disgust and m

LEE- “So, Mr. Sharma, if you got caught at the airport, I don’t know you.” I said taking another sip of my coffee. “We won’t, Mr. Lee, we Indians are good at everything, this is just a drug deal.” He said and folded his hands, this was first time we were having a contract with Indian’s but their confidence bought me and I chose to sign the deal with them. “It was pleasure meeting you.” I stood up and they followed. The meeting took longer than expected as we sat for 4 hours and discussed everything thoroughly and then only chose to put my trust in them after I found them worthy. I walked out of the room towards mine and realized it was getting dark and there was no sign of Jordan, even though I sent few bodyguards with him I was still worried as my eyes weren’t smiling because Jordan wasn’t visible in them. I thought of calling him but stopped as he might think I'm irritating and troublesome so, I backed off patiently waiting for him to come back, my curious mind wasn’t at

LEE- “Well, at least you know who I am, give us all your drug dealers, your business, your mansion and the current contract you signed with the Indian’s, I’ll set your wife free. Sounds simple, right?” He said and laughed at me. I had so many responsibilities on my head and I can’t just abandon my people leaving them homeless who actually serve me with all their honesty nor can I leave Jordan, so what am I supposed to do? “Where is Jordan?” I yelled thinking about him, I just wanted to talk and know if he’s alright or not. I can’t live without my clan nor without Jordan, this bastard wanted to have everything my father and I built with sweat and blood but I was ready to gladly hand it over to him. I can start again; I can look out for people who are loyal to me and can always have Jordan’s back. “Say yes and you get to talk to your wifey” he said in a calm voice and I knew what I wanted. “Yes, I agree to all your terms, just let me talk to him.” I could give my whole life to thi

JORDAN- I sat on the floor praying with all my might, but knowing that the one who’s ruining his life is me and not his enemies. I'm his biggest enemy. I started scratching my head being ashamed of myself and banged it against the wall making me bleed even more. My reckless self was torn apart and I ran out of patience. Nothing hurts more than the situation I was in, watching your man in a terrible condition and feeling guilty knowing that you’re the reason is all it takes to ruin your psyche. “It happened because of me” I said in a low voice and kept on hitting myself in resentment, I hated my existence and for entering in Lee’s life. There was nothing we couldn’t overcome but how will I live with this culpability killing me on the inside? “I destroyed everything” I spoke again and scratched my face; all my wounds were torn, again making me bleed but it didn’t matter to me anymore. Lee’s condition was worse than mine and I don’t know how many more tests do I have to give for bei