Lahat ng Kabanata ng SAVOUR: THE MAFIA'S BABYSITTER: Kabanata 61 - Kabanata 70

"Are you sure???" Celina asked me through the mirror, uncertainty on her face matching mine. I turned towards her with a pout as she sits on my bed with her hands stretched behind her. " I am bored and want to bring some change to my style," I tell Celina, twirling so that I can get my point through to her. " If you want to do this just because you don't feel confident in yourself then I don't know if I am up helping you." she dictates her decision, raising both her hands in give up. My pout deepens, " I am not doubting myself, I just want some changes in me. " I try explaining to her. Celina thinks I am insecure about my looks and I don't see the beauty people see and she is right, I do feel this way sometimes. But today the things I want to change are not because I am not confident about myself, it's something I want to do. And I have no logical reasoning for that. You can say that today I just woke up thinking that there are things that I want to change about myself

Tiara's POV Left and right. I can feel my neck aching, looking at both girls from left to right. Waiting for the two women sitting on each side of me to at least, say something to clarify everything that just happens. Before the guard came, pushed the starter away and dragged us into the car. Okay, I am exaggerating, we were not dragged, but he didn't need to only the name of Stefano was enough for us to follow the guards. Because none of us wanted Stefano to grace us with his presence.And now seeing how my sister and friend glared at the man, I don't think Stefano coming would have been a good idea. " Are we going to pretend that nothing happened or someone is going to explain?" I asked looking at both of them, both women just tensed but made no effort to open their mouths and utter anything. I don't know why it's ne or anyone else, but I hate when people lie straight to my face and especially when they know that I know that they are lying. And in this case, they

I can't breathe. My chest feels constricting. It feels like I have run a thousand miles. My eyes are stinging, and my throat feels as if someone is choking me. I want to rub my throat. Want to do anything to get rid of this feeling. The room suddenly is feeling too claustrophobic. My brain forgot to send any signal to my body to provide oxygen. " I need air," I whispered, I don't know who heard, and without waiting for anyone's reply, I left the room immediately. In the back of my head, I can feel two eyes boring. But I ignored it completely. I wanted to be ignored. Running straight from the office, I exited the beach house and kept running until I can feel my legs giving up. And when my brain and legs stopped communicating. i fell onto my knees, I can feel my eyes stinging because of the tears, which broke all dams of my emotions. Burying my face in my hands, I let a sob wrecked through me. All the words that Stefano said kept, coming back, like arrows piercing

There comes a time in people's lives when they start hating their own emotions, they hate the tears, always sitting at the edge of their eyes, ready to fall any minute. It all starts exhausting and for that sole moment, you start thinking that is death a better option, and whether will it end all this suffering. These are the thoughts that start plaguing your head and you won't just tug your hair and scream at the top of your lungs. You want to hate yourself and start feeling that's is you, you are the one who is jinxed and brings pain to yourself and everyone around you. No matter how hard you try to overcome these emotions, it gets tougher and you find yourself in a corner of a room with a pillow and crying, like it's the only therapy that can bring you some peace that's how I am feeling right now. A peaceful life is all I asked for but why it is the only thing that I never get? How many times am I to scream that I want to be happy? Just happy. I never wanted to be some

Tiara's POV I am nervous. I never felt this nervous ever in my life. Today I woke up earlier than I usually wake. I have to do a lot of things today, so much have I planned and so little time I have to accomplish all my plans. Taking a deep breath I threw the duvet off, I rubbed my hands to pat my face warm with it. And then putting my feet in my fluffy slippers, I walked towards my widow, I opened the windows and with closed eyes I let the sunlight hit my face with a lot of positivity. Then taking a determined breath, I went to my vanity, opening the drawers I pulled out the things, I need for the day. With a satisfied smile, I let my feet twirl and with the things I pulled out from my drawer, I went straight into the bathroom. On the shelf where the towels are kept, was a wooden basket, pulling it from the shelf I emptied the contents of my hand into it. I walked to the jacuzzi and opened the tap for the jacuzzi to get it filled. Then opening another cabinet bes