The Iron Alpha のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 81 - チャプター 90

Kate’s pov Asher has been back here every weekend and Leia lights up those weekend. I’m proud of her though. She could have felt down and not done anything about it. But she’s going to therapy, hanging out with me, working at the farm. She says keeping busy keeps her distracted and it’s working. There are still days that she’s doing less than fine and I can usually tell because she’s forgetful or really moody or she calls in sick and spends the whole day in bed. But we all have bad and good days I suppose. I have been writing with Sierra and after that first letter, I wrote all of them without thinking. It’s not easy and the thought of seeing her again makes me so anxious, because next to Leia, Sierra is the only one that knows me really well now. I am trying to be more open in general. With my parents it was always a bit easier, but I’m trying to take it to the next step. Especially now that Asher isn’t here, it’s much easier to talk at the table, simply because I'm the only chil

Sierra’s pov “What the hell is wrong with you!” Grace growled. I ignored her and focused on listening to what Emma and Jara where talking about with Kate. “.. so maybe you could join? Especially now that you’re walking?” Kate looked over at me and then back to her aunts, “yeah, that sounds nice!” I walked closer when aunt Emma spotted me too, “Sierra! O you missed it, it was so freaking cool. Kate just stood up from her chair and dove into the pool like a mermaid or something.” I smiled and pretended to be fine. “That does sound cool. I’m sorry I missed it. Traffic was crazy.” Kate shrugged, “it’s okay.” But I could tell she was lying. It wasn’t okay. She had looked so beautiful diving into the pool and I almost gasped when I saw her stand up. She looked like a goddess. But I still couldn’t make myself go into the party. Even when Grace threatened to shift and take over, I kept my distance. I stood like a weirdo in the bushes, watching the party from afar. “And what the hell i

Leia’s pov I fucking hated that Kate was gone and Asher. I didn’t realize how much I relied on them both. Okay, that’s a lie. I totally know how much I fucking rely on them. They’re my whole support system together with my parents. Especially dad, me and him are tight as fuck. But there are some things I can’t tell him. I don’t want him to fucking know about all the things Mark did to me. Part of me feels like I’m protecting Mark by not saying it to, but I am also protecting my parents. I mean, would you like to fucking know your daughter was verbally abused daily and made to feel like shit on top of every fucking thing that happened the night he broke my wrist and ribs, and fingers. Fucking asshole. Asher is the type of guy that doesn’t really post pictures online or I’d be fucking stalking him for life. I know there are girls around him that want a piece of that ass. I have him and I get it. Asher is the best looking guy around and he’s so fucking charming. And they don’t even kno

Sierra’s pov I had been trying to meet up with Kate, I was hoping once I’d see her, I would be able to explain everything. But she was too busy. Every weekend she had some plans. Maybe I didn’t try hard enough. Because my explanation wasn’t a good one. Try telling the girl you’re falling for, “hey I missed your birthday party, because I was scared. Scared of my feelings for you, but also scared what everyone else will think. Because I am freaking shallow and don’t deserve you at all.” “Yeah, don’t say that.” Grace said. “It’s not true anyway. You’re not shallow. It’s actually funny when you think about it. In this regard, you’re just as much overthinking things as Kate does.” “But everything will change, once I admit I have feelings for Kate.” I replied. “Yeah, things will change. But who says it won’t be for the better? Change doesn’t have to be bad. Just think of all the good things that could come from this. You won’t have to worry about this, you’d have Kate as your partner, y

Leia’s pov “So maybe this weekend Sierra can finally pop your fucking cherry?” I said, wiggling my eyebrows at Kate. I loved teasing her, especially after she always gagged every fucking time I mentioned something sexual. “I hate that I told you about that weekend and what she smells like.” Kate said, rolling her eyes. “But….? Do you think you’re fucking ready or is something still holding you back?” I asked her seriously. I was really fucking excited Sierra and Kate got together, but up until now it wasn't like she wanted it to be. It wasn’t Sierra’s fault though. Last fucking week there was an attack on the Eclipse pack, so Sierra and Asher couldn’t fucking leave. So they had that one weekend and since then two fucking weeks of long distance relationship. Which would be hard for anyone. Asher had been so worried, but my KitKat was here and I was back on my meds. Not for fucking long though, doctor Angela and I had a plan to slowly stop. I needed to know if I could do this on my