31Sometimes I really really hated Zac.Every single time I thought I knew him, I would find out that I really did not understand him at all.He would always push me away and put me out whenever he felt like it. It was annoying and pissed me off and hurt me at the same time. I wasn't stupid, I knew I could just walk away from all of it and stop letting him come and go whenever he wanted, stop letting him hurt me, stop letting him be moody and kill my vibe all the time, but I couldn't do that. I much rather deal with his mood swings and going back and fourth to me than not ever speak to him again.I wish he would just talk to me and tell me how he's feeling and what he's thinking instead of pushing me out of his life every time something was bothering him.Things would be so much easier with better communication."Can you get off your ass and come to the movies with us?" Bea crossed her arms over her chest and gave me a tired look as she watched me lie in my bed with a glum expression

33I was standing at my locker, the door door open as I stared down at the vile in my hands.I hd been in this spot so many times and I always stopped myself from making the stupid pills I had grown dependant on but right now, nothing was stopping me.Any other time, I would keep remembering how Zac stopped smoking for me, because he knew I didn't like it but seeing him walk away from me like that yesterday and go back to the cigarettes so easily made me realize I had nothing stopping me either.Maybe I had reasons to not take the pills but if I ignored those reasons, I could convince myself it was okay and deal with the consequences later."Don't do it."I shoved the vile away before glancing over to see John frowning at me.I stared at him blankly, feeling empty and numb at this point.Was I overreacting or was it okay to be this way when I just love the guy I'm in love with without even knowing why I lost him?"What do you want? Shouldn't you be guarding Zac or something?"John sig

FIVE YEARS LATER "And here's the last fucking box," Bea groaned as she placed the box down on the floor before glaring at me. "I hate you for making me help you move all your shit into your new house." I grinned, swinging an arm around her shoulder. "You could have given up an hour ago when Shane did." I nodded my head over to Shane who was sitting on the counter recording us on his phone, grinning cheekily. "I'm not a lazy fucker like my boyfriend," Bea rolled her eyes, pushing my arm off her. "Can we go eat now?" They had been dating for two years now. "We literally just got food," Jade laughed as her and John walked in. No, they weren't dating. "I'll get you food, baby," Shane stuck his tongue out a Bea, like the child he was, but still sat on the counter and continued recording all of us. "So," Jade walked over to me, raising her eyebrows. "How does it feel buying your first house?" I laughed softly, shaking my head. "Crazy but good crazy." "Where is my fucking stunning fia

As soon as I walked into Tyler's house, I wanted to turn and walk right out. The house was packed, the air smelling like sweat and booze and the music making my eardrums vibrate. "Why did I agree to come?" I walked over to Bea and Jade, shaking my head already. "I'm surprised you came," Jade admitted. She glanced around, trying to spot more familiar faces. Bea cocked her head to the side, eyeing me with confusion. "Did you Uber?" I nodded, scanning the room to try to spot Evan. "Long story—I'll fill you in later." Bea pulled both mine and jade's arms as she dragged us into the kitchen. "Let's get out drink on, bitches." I scrunched my nose as the strong smell of liquor flooded my senses. I shook my head when Bea held a drink out for me to take. "You know I don't drink." Bea sighed. "You're not DD tonight." I shook my head again. "No—thanks." Luckily for me, my knight in shining armour cut in. "You look lovely—as always." Evan wrapped his arms around me from behind, leaning do

I was wrapped up in multiple blankets, laying in my bed and watching sad romance movies on Netflix when my room door was swung open and in came Shane, Bea, Jade, and John.I groaned, grabbing a pillow and putting it over my face, screaming into it.Bea walked over and grabbed the pillow, taking it away from me. She whacked me on the head with the pillow before dropping and crossing her arms over her chest."You all can kindly leave me to sulk." I muttered, still staring at the tv screen and avoiding all their gazes.Shane grabbed the remote before I had a chance to and turned the tv off.It had been another two weeks and still not a word from Zac. What was I even waiting for at this point?"Get out," I muttered dully, staring at the ceiling."No," Bea stated firmly. "How about you get out of bed."I ignored her."Come on, Jas," Jade sighed. "You have to do something other than... this. This is all you've been doing. We miss you.""And I miss him," I grumbled, still not looking at any