Mildred POVI had to make a choice.The words echoed in my head over and over again, stealing away my sleep and any peace I had. The morning that followed after that one I decided to go down to the garden and get some fresh air. Arnold was so elated, I didn't know that he was that worried about me becoming a recluse.He told me that I could summon any of the servants whenever I needed anything and if it was something that none of them could provide, they could call out to him, and he would immediately come to my side.I slowly brought my fingers up to cup his cheeks, well they were too small compared to his chiseled face to achieve that effect he gently leaned onto my fingers and then he let out a soft sigh.For a moment his mask fell, and I saw how tired and drained he looked, a prick of guilt pierced through my heart. I had only been thinking about myself in this whole situation but how many times have I actually sat down to comfort him as well?If I couldn't do that at least well e

Mildred POV"You are going to be sedated for the entire process," the doctor informed me then he was putting on his gloves and my shaking eyes went over to Arnold for assurance.From what he had told me abortions were not exactly common among werewolves, most people would have to have children with their mates and it was always a blessing to them so there was hardly ever any reason for them to worry.Not to mention that there was also a stigma here for anyone who had an abortion especially since it was so uncommon, the doctor had been extremely reluctant before and I could still see some traces of the same reluctance in his eyes but it seems to be overshadowed by the fear he had for the Alpha so he was just doing his job.The sight of a syringe and my heart was thumping hard against my chest but I relaxed a little bit when I felt a little warm fingers enveloping my own he kissed me as the syringe pierced into my skin and after a while, my eyelids became incredibly heavy until I could

Mildred POVI curled up in the fetal position, couldn't care less if I was freezing at this point anymore or if my stomach was growling loud enough for the floor above me to hear.Maybe I should disappear?There was no need for the remaining and constantly causing him pain. I was the reason that he had ended up in a coma, as his ex-Beta had said that the fight between the two of us had been quite heated and the chances of who was going to win was on a hairline.While I had been fighting with the clear intention of staining everywhere with his blood, he was trying his best not to hurt me and just to have me subdued. I sunk my fingers into my hair, pulling it hard, I just didn't deserve this man.I don't think I ever did. Maybe I was not supposed to be happy in my life. Things had turned out this way because I had tried to change the natural order and find happiness for myself when maybe I was just cursed to be unhappy forever.Loneliness was the only companion that I had in the night w

Mildred POVMaybe I should have just allowed them to execute me anyways. I thought to myself three days into living in the condition that had been given to spare my life in order to make sure that I didn't go berserk in the pack.I made it to wear this tight metal bracelet obviously made of the purest silver.And because I was beginning to exhibit some werewolf characteristics, even going as far as transforming into one in an extreme situation, it had some effect on me.It was constantly itchy, but I was not allowed to take it off and so I just took it as a regular discomfort that I would just have to feel.But yet that was not the worst thing that happened to me. My movement was also regularly monitored by the ex beta, I needed to know what I was doing, and when I was doing it I was practically feeling like a child at one point, not like I was even allowed to go to many places, many that I had to stay in the Pack House and it was mostly empty since everybody knew that I was inside. W

Mildred's POVI had already tolerated so much from him and this was just too much."Take it back to him," I seethed at the maid with burning eyes and she looked at me like a deer in front of headlights."He…he told me that I shouldn't return it, he told me that I would be punished if I did…" She said, her voice shaking with unison to her body, I gritted my teeth as I paced around my room, this was the final straw…I couldn't allow him to turn me into his freaking puppet.He was just far too insufferable he knew that I wouldn't accept the dress and was now using the maid as a pawn I told her that she could drop the dress, all so that she wouldn't end up in trouble and dismissed her for my room.When I was done with my morning routine and my eyes went straight over to the box that was lying on my bed out of sheer curiosity I decided to look at the dress when I wasn't going to wear it no matter how pretty it was.That bastard's intentions towards me were crystal clear to the last thing I