Xavier gasped as I took him into my mouth. He rested his hand on my head. He didn’t control the rhythm, but the movement of his hand communicated how the action of my tongue influenced him. His breath shortened, and his grip held my head where he wanted. I took him deep inside my mouth, and my tongue twirled on his rod. My small hand could barely get around him, but I didn’t fail to pleasure him with it.       His breathing was rasped and urgent. He wanted more and moaned for more. He moaned louder when my tongue did its little movement there. I looked up to see the man in complete surrender—his eyes were closed, and he gripped the bedsheet until his knuckles turned white.Xavier was being more insistent, but as soon as I sensed that, I ceased all action and moved away. And this time, his curse words were explosive. I stood up to my full height, tall enough to see the an

       I looked out into the gloomy gray London sky. It rained a little, as always. I thought back to that night with Xavier, a stranger. He gave me his number, but I hadn’t called him back.       My phone just lay there on the table, and I considered texting him, but what should I say? How can I text a man after a night like that? Let’s have breakfast together again? Oh, breakfast. That man made an amazing breakfast the other morning. He was a complete gentleman from the start until I closed his apartment door and went back to my place to get changed for work. Every muscle in my lower body was still sore. It was something to be expected after that sort of heavy exercise.       Should I text him now or wait for a few more days?I didn’t want to be that needy girl, and it had been only a couple of days after that night. And he mentioned that he w

 I was messed up. Really, I was truly messed up. I was on the phone with Sophia the morning before I had to go out on a date with Xavier. I still texted Cameron from time to time. And I couldn’t put my foot down on which direction I should dictate my personal life to be—it felt all over the place. Last night with Kyle, we ended up sitting down over a few drinks and discussed precisely this topic of contention—should there be limits to sexual liberation in an open relationship? I never joined any debate club, but I did sit through Cambridge Union debates multiple times. I even watched their old debates to make sense of things. I remembered that one debate with the infamous porn star Anabel Chong coming to the Union and defending the freedom of sex after she filmed this one project with 251 men within 10 hours, effectively breaking the record that year that that adult movie came out. I was half horrified and fascinated. To be honest, I couldn’t fat

        Sienna had not text me back all afternoon. I didn’t mind as much. Well, I thought I didn’t mind, but the thought of what she was doing kept occupying my mind. She hadn’t told me when she was free this week to go for a run, so we hadn’t made anymore arrangement. Maybe, I could remind her of that.I knew way too well that this was a rare second chance to get back with her again. It wasn’t an ideal situation that I would have wanted for us, but still, a slim chance is better than no chance at all.       I met Ernie for a walk along the River Thames earlier, and that bothered me more. My little brother called to ask for more money again, so I asked him to meet me in person and explain what was really happening. He must be desperate because this time, he dragged himself out of bed in the early morning to walk and talk with me arou

 I didn’t expect to talk about Joseph to Sienna. He was my past, my presence, and hopefully, my future. It was too difficult to open up talking about this to anyone. People were judgmental, and I didn’t like anyone to step in to talk about my business. But this was Sienna. And she talked about her trouble first. I didn’t expect her to talk about her life to this depth, either. But again, we switched from tea to Chardonnay for quite a while already, and that definitely influenced her speech.First, she talked about her difficulty with her long-distance relationship, then she revealed her girlfriend’s infidelity, then this idea of an open relationship. I understood the concept well and simply nodded through this whole affair. Well, if it worked for her and her relationship, then I guessed it worked. What made me raise my eyebrows was her renewed relationship with Cameron. And what made me drink a whole glass of wine in one gulp without a pro