Semua Bab Jai - Royal Wolf Of Zidiah, The Next Gen!: Bab 41 - Bab 45

I am so nervous right now, yet excited at the same time. Tonight is the night I give myself to Jai, not because he's pressured me in any way; he hasn't; in fact, he's done anything but. However, I feel the time is right, and I'm one hundred per cent ready for this.I might not know a lot about sex because I have no personal experience. But I know that it's okay to be a little scared of what's to come.I've never seen a penis in my life, apart from Jai's. Even then, I didn't see him standing and only looked for a second. It's intimidating thinking about Jai's penis, what he'll do with it, and what he'll do to me. But I can't think badly when I know Jai would never hurt me.I want Jai and I to complete the mate bond. This isn't even to do with what Sally said about me needing the mate bond. It's because I love him; I don't have one single doubt in my mind that Jai is my world. My mate is perfect, and he never asks me to do anything I'm not comfortable with. He always puts me first and t

I can't stop looking at Melinda as she sleeps peacefully beside me. Last night was the best night of my life, bar none. Melinda, dressed in that sexy underwear and looking like a Goddess, will never leave me. I had no idea she'd bought such scantily clad things while out with Stella.The way she took charge turned me on like nothing before. Goddess, I almost died!I'm not going to pretend I've never orgasmed in my life, I'm a man, and masturbating is a done thing once you're a teenager. Well, it was for me. I didn't see anything wrong with it, even though my grandmother once laughed about saving myself for my mate.I was fourteen, and she embarrassed me like no one ever has before or will again. I don't believe she knew what I'd done fifteen minutes prior in my bathroom. Faye was simply explaining to my brother and me how important it was not to be with other girls because our mates would be upset, just as we would if they'd been with others.Damien took Faye's words literally and bel

Drew asked me to help Violet today, and I was happy to do so. I like Violet; she's a sweet girl and incredibly innocent. Drew and Jai had a meeting, and I wasn't needed. Jai apologised, but there was no need. I understand that Jai will have meetings and things to do that don't involve me sometimes; it comes with being a Beta. I kissed him and smiled before walking away.I took Violet's size in clothes and sent someone to go shopping for everything she'd need. Jai wants me to stay within the bounds in case Mike shows up. I agree with him because I'm not stupid, and I don't want to face that man unawares. I don't want him catching me out the way he did at Greenrock.Violet has today off work. Drew told her to settle in and then start her new position tomorrow. The girl couldn't stop banging on about how great Drew was for half an hour! He gave her a house, money, and the position of head housekeeper. I couldn't help but smile at her and feel proud of Drew. He's already an incredible Alp