Valerie's POV Everything inside of me is in disarray and I can't even think properly with him beside me and his hand holding onto mine firmly like I was going to be out of sight the next minute. Well, that's what I plan to do. I'm going off. The moment John enters the gate and halts in the driveway, I open the door, releasing my hand from his hand, and off I go, walking briskly towards the front door. "Valerie?!" He calls and I begin to hear the sound of his approaching feet. I increase my pace and when I am inside, I rush towards the staircase, taking two at a time. "Valerie?!" His voice booms from nowhere, louder than before, and I wonder how he managed to come this close within minutes. I do not stop. I am too embarrassed to look him in the face and tell him anything. I can't even think of anything to say. I don't even know what I want. The last time I checked, I was done with men but with his confession, I am so fucking confused that I no longer know what I want. I twist t

Ryan's POV The scowl I have on leaves my face the moment she stares up to meet my gaze. She looks so drunk and cute and I can't help but let my anger dissolve.She is good at getting me mad. Then the next minute, my anger will be gone."Who the hell was that?!" I question her. She laughs and shakes her head."I have no slightest idea", she doesn't look like she cares about who he is but I do. What if I wasn't here? What if I didn't come to the party with her, what would have happened?I know how much she loves parties and I wonder about all the crazy things she must have done before we got married.I know she had a boyfriend and obviously, she goes to parties with him but I can't help but worry about the sort of intimacy between them even after knowing that they never had sex.She twirls around with her back to me as she puts my hands around her waist up to her stomach. Suddenly, I feel hard.Shit!Is she purposely grinding her body to mine?Like someone who has no care in the world

Valerie's POV With a groan and a banging headache, I step down from the bed, glancing around to see if Ryan came back to sleep here last night or not.The other bed is empty and seems untouched. Rubbing a finger on my forehead, I walk to the fridge to get some water. Suddenly, I remember I told Ryan to go out of the room last night which must be the reason why he didn't come back.Maybe he is in the other room.After drinking a glassful of water, I stroll to the door, the headache still very much present.I take the door out and move towards my room, wondering if he slept there or somewhere else. I was really harsh last night and I feel bad for sending him out of his room. I feel stupid for initiating the heated kiss which almost led to something else and I couldn't help my rudeness. I just don't want him to think otherwise. But now, I can't help but ponder over what he thinks of me.I know he is doing all he can to make me happy. I was happy he took me to a party last night but I

Valerie's POV The darkness of insecurity envelops me as I stare into his blue eyes, watching me intensely before sighing.This reaction that I get from him every single time is what makes me more curious about who the damn woman is. If I wasn't curious about her before now, what happened a few minutes ago is enough to make me more curious about her.Celina Sebastian is not a woman I like. I don't know if it's because I saw her with Fred or the fact that she had a past with Ryan.I keep telling myself that she must have dated Ryan in the past. I called her his ex-girlfriend but whenever I think deeply about this, I keep denying it because Ryan was never in a relationship which means there is something more to it.Ryan seems to dislike her. She seems to like him. What answer does that give me?I don't know. The more I ask these questions, the more confused and curious I become.I don't know why I am pissed even after knowing that Ryan dislikes her but I guess it's because he might star

Valerie's POV Warmth spread through my body at the thought of having a special day with him. It replaces the displeasure I felt for his actions earlier and I continue to take in his features as he stares out of the window till the car stops.Why is he always sweet and kind to me despite everything I have done?"Here we are", his deep voice interrupts my thoughts and he gets out of the car to open the door for me. "Close your eyes", he whispers into my ears the moment he pulls the car door open and leans fully in so that I can smell his lovely cologne.I do not oblige to his command but continue to watch him, wondering what it would feel like to be madly in love with him. Will he still be as sweet as he is to me right now? Will he be faithful like he is to me right now? Will he love me forever and not stop loving me for a second?The way I react to his touch tonight is confusing the hell out of me. His actions keep confusing me too and I don't know what to do or say to him about how