2nd January 2022I was sitting on my bed packing my bag when someone entered the house. I felt goosebumps all over me. Olson or the crown prince always make sure they knock before coming into the house even though I mostly left it open or sometimes they come bellowing my name.I picked up my brother's hunting gun and tiptoed out of my room. It was so quiet that the only thing I could hear was my heart beat and the light feet of who ever it was going through our things in the sitting room."Who are you?" I asked pointing the heavy gun at the stranger."Oh.. I'm not here to harm you, the door was open" She smiled folding her hands in front of her.She was very beautiful with her long red hair in a ponytail. She was wearing leather trouser and boots with a feather coat to protect her from mosquitoes and cold."That's not my question.. who the fuck are you?" I asked again."Oh,, I'm Tatiana De Costa" She smiled not even a hint of fear in her eyes or body language."" What are you doing

"What did you say?" Anda asked again coming close to him."I love you, I love you so much that the thought of You leaving me is so I'm unbearable.. I can't.. I just.. "Nelson broke off." I love you too, I spent the night with Alex coming up with hundreds of explanations of this feelings inside me.. I cried so much when I thought of losing you, I can't.. I can't lose you "Anda ran into his arms hugging him while burying her face into his shirt." Shhhh, we are not going to lose each other, I rather give up the throne and Move to another country with you . Working for your father or spending the money you make from racing"Nelson said." That's a nice offer but I want to be your Queen, I want to give people right to marry whoever they want to, I want to throw your mother into jail for all she has done, I want it all . I want you . I want to be yours.. I want you to be mine"Anda standing on her feet kissing him with all her pent up emotion.Trying to tell him the things she couldn't

4th January 2022"Prestine, get your fucking bag, let's leave" Olson shouted angrily."No, you knew all along, I was the fool who thought I was protecting you, the crown princess approached you already and you're just going to leave the country knowing a poor woman is going to become an unplanned single mother, I refuse to be a heartless just like you are" I cried." Why are you acting like you were not going to keep quiet about it and leave the country with?what difference does it make?I don't have this time so get in the fucking car and let's get out of here, Ferdinand does not like to wait"Olson shouted." I'm not going,I'm not leaving so go, leave me alone and go"I replied." You know what?you're selfish,you think you are good just because you don't suddenly want to leave a single mother?that's nonsense,you want everything to be about you and then when it is not you throw a tantrum but I am not going to keep up with it anymore,for the first time,my Happiness is going to come first

20th January 2022I have been staring at my diary for days because I couldn't put anything down no matter how much I tried.I felt empty whenever I read about my brothers death.it was as if I was refreshing my memory because I did not ever want to forget the hurt and betrayal.Why didn't he take me with them?why did Olson leave me in this cruel world alone.My brother was a herbalist just like my father.of course he grew up near a big forest and always explored the natural plants and turning them into medicine.he would experiment on animals and I think that what how he discovered the killer posion plant.After I had been found by the prince,Nelson at the hospital and brought to the hospital.i heard about the Crown Prince's funeral but no one heard about my brother.I had convinced him to take me home and we could not find my brother's body.it was not even buried around the house.i cried in agony.At least,my Brother deserved to be buried, we'd combed through the bush and could not fin

29th January 2022I smiled at myself as the King walked into the dinning hall and we all stood up.The Queen widened her eyes as she saw sitting beside the king's mistresses.Understanding dawned on her as she realized I was one of the king's women now.it didn't take long for that to happen.i knew the king's weakness was women.the number of mistresses he had and the rumor that the half of the country women was his women was true.I only had to lower my gown to show off my cleavage,smile at him and lick my lips when our eyes to get his attention.And it did.He came into my bed and slept with me after promising to let me go."Prestine,can we talk briefly?" The Queen asked."What is there to say when you can do that after breakfast,let's eat" The king ordered and we settled down to eat.It didn't take long for the Queen to come into my room that night with daggers in her eyes.i could tell she was angry and about to murder someone."How dare you?I allowed your presence into the palace and y