Queen and the Four Kingdoms のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 21 - チャプター 30

Spring Kingdom BellaWas I feeling guilty for kissing a man other than my husband? Of course not! Antony is an asshole, he didn't deserve that I felt bad for having done what I did, I would do it again if I had to, the only thing I was afraid of was being found out, hanging myself was not the end I wanted for my life.Today to have a moment of peace, and relax my body and mind I decided to go out for a walk with Esmeralda, it has been a long time since we have been out together. - Come on, Bella! I feel like bathing in that wonderful lake - Esmeralda was practically ready. - Wait, we're almost done! - I said, her excitement made me hurry even more, and I looked inside the room to make sure I didn't forget anything.We left the room walking through the corridors to the entrance of the castle, where a carriage was waiting for us, the coachman helped us up, and returned to his seat making the carriage ride, during the way Esmeralda kept talking about how excited she was. The long rid

Spring Kingdom BellaThat night was certainly a harrowing torment for both of us, for sure. But we will get through it together as we always do, even if along the way we fall, but we will have each other to help us get up whenever we need to. But now I understand that I won't be able to face it alone because I am aware of what he is capable of from now on. I will have to be careful in everything I do, so that I don't get hurt, and don't hurt those who are important to me. The feeling of guilt eats away at my soul, if I had not faced it, Esmeralda would not be going through this moment now. My conscience claims that I went through it too, I still went to save her, something no one has done for me, I can't even remember what my mother told me. She is a monster! An unscrupulous man who would and will do anything to get what he wants. Today I decided not to go to the meetings anymore because I don't want anyone I love to suffer anymore because of me. Now it is more than certain that An

《Winter Kingdom 》CassianKnow that she wanted something, I saw it in her gaze, I saw the struggle and the uncertainty when she looked at me.-What makes you think I want something from you.-If you don't want something from me, why does it keep coming up everywhere we see each other.-We met this morning, the day hasn't even ended. I really came to see if you needed help, besides I was assigned to clean your room. Such service was only allowed with your presence.I stared at her, she was right about what she said, but something was wrong, I was trained to be suspicious of everyone around me, especially those I see more than once a day.- Come back, you don't need to perform your services here.-With your permission.She had closed the door, but I would feel safer locked in with the key. And so I did.One, two, and three hours passed, and I was still in the room. It was strange to have all this paperwork to go through. I realized that there were matters from the time when Arthur was ki

《Spring Kingdom》Bella After that day I decided to turn around and forget everything I experienced with King Cassian, even with the few times we saw each other, it was as if we already knew each other...strange!. But that's how I felt about him. Giving ashore, which gave me joy and security in the midst of the storm that was my life, causes a pain that stops me from breathing. It was strange that feeling of loss. As much as I want to I don't go to the border for fear of him being there, another thing I don't go into a Council meeting anymore, the last time served as a warning, the further away from Antony the better it would be for my mind, which is still recovering, and trying hard not to go into despair. Seeing him was like awakening in my mind the memory of the past that persists in reliving every second over and over again without stopping. It's torturous, agonizing, and you live like this for fear of something happening. - Madam, are you sure about this? - The other maid asked

Spring Kingdom Cassian I entered the room, throwing everything I could find in front of me, I looked at myself in the mirror and saw the monster that I am. With one punch I broke the mirror, my hand was bleeding from the cuts, but the pain was nowhere near what I felt in my heart. I went to take a bath to try to refresh myself. My body felt like it was boiling, because everything in me was burning.Besides the anger I felt, the substance put in my drink was doing this to my body. As time passed the heat was better and I could sleep now. Or at least try to.Lying in bed I rolled from side to side, I couldn't sleep through the night, everything that had happened replayed in my mind, his panicked face was what completely broke me down, how could a day so peaceful like all the others without movement, end this way. Alex had visited me about ten times in the night, but I didn't want to look at anyone, I was afraid to see in his eyes my reflection. I was a monster!But he kept knocking on