บททั้งหมดของ Pretend Surrogate: บทที่ 61 - บทที่ 70

I was shaking. My whole body is shaking as I hugged him still. I never experienced this kind of surrender in my life. It was as if through that hug I had surrendered myself to him.When I saw his eyes I could not imagine how I felt. Mixture of fun and pain. Especially when he met my hugs and he could almost lift me with the tightness of his hug.The way he wiped my tears, the way he brushed his thumb on my cheeks… It all felt familiar. I long for it, I long for his touch. I only realized more and more that after all this time, he’s still be the one I’ll go home into. Only in him can I experience this kind of peace.I gasped for breath as I stopped crying now. It seems only now to breathe a sigh of relief because of the moaning made earlier.I spent almost an hour waiting for him earlier outside his pad, and when I saw him there’s this kind of joy in my heart that can’t be matched by anything in this world."I'm sorry."I became so comfortable. We had already entered his pad and only s

I think he was really upset. I thought he’s already awake when he said those words but when his hug loosened I knew he’s back to sleep again. I was afraid that he would wake up again, I spent a few more minutes in his room before I removed his grip on me.When I thought he’s on his deep sleep, I left. I ate the food that he gave me and I washed the dishes, and I went back to sleep again.I only slept in the living room. I woke up earlier than usual, maybe because I was new to the place where I slept. I looked up the stairs, I hadn’t yet heard any noise upstairs. Maybe he was still asleep.I just decided to cook breakfast so that somehow I would be useful. I looked for anything that I can cook in the fridge. I got some eggs bacon and some vegetables so I can make vegetable salad.After cooking those, I also made some avocado toast. To be honest, I’m not used with this kind of meals. I’m the unhealthy type, but I just thought that this is what Hugh’s type of food.I’m satisfied looking

Okay. I admit. I’m done with the level of blindness. I’m not naive to realize it all, but I’m not assuming to assume it all.What if he really does have feelings for me? Her mom doesn't like me. Isn't that one of the reasons why I avoided him and now I'm married to someone I don't like?Now I’m more proven. That life is like a vast sea. Different waves with different directions, one move will cause another wave. They said you should not worry about tomorrow and live your life to fullest, but now I’m a living proof that that’s not true.Because if you don’t think about tomorrow, you won’t strive for the present.I walked silently on his hallway. I was looking for him because I was going to ask him if he would come with me to dinner. I found the door of his office open.I peek through the door of his office, and I saw his back facing the door.His hands are on the table and I think he’s doing something on his laptop.I entered silently, he didn't even notice me because of his excessive

For a moment I felt like floating in the air hearing and confirming the question in my head.But that moment ended and I realized that it’s not all the same now. I’m married and the reality that his mom doesn’t want me for him will never change.And so instead of saying anything, that night I ran into his room and locked myself in there. I barely slept. All I wanted to do was cry, and when I woke up the next day, another reality came to me."What?"I rolled over on the bed. I held my head because it’s pounding. It was almost morning when I fell asleep and I also woke up to the loud sound of my phone.“Alright. I’ll go now. ”I hurriedly got dressed and prepared to leave. I was in tears at what I found out. I grab my purse and hurry out the door.When I came out the door I was immediately stopped by Hugh's presence there.He also seemed surprised when I came out. It’s like he’s contemplating to come in his room or what. He scanned me and fear immediately embedded in his eyes.“You’re l

"Mom, I'm glad you're back."I kissed mom.”I know, thank you honey. It’s just that we had some problems with the client and we weren’t able to go home in time. ”I nodded even though I’m still thinking about how it is so easy for them to let grandma be alone.”How about dad? Is he well? ”"He's a bit tired so he went straight to the mansion."Mom and I were still talking while grandma was asleep. It’s been exactly a week since grandma was confined at the hospital. She’s getting worse each day. There are more chances that he doesn't know me.“Where’s Echo?” she asked.My lips went flatline. I don’t know how I’m going to answer that question of his."He's probably busy with the company.""He's still out of town?""I'm not really sure mom." I said casually so that she wouldn’t notice how indifferent I am.On the other hand, I would say that the mother of his future grandchild is with him.“Alright. Thank you for being on grandma’s side while we are not around. ” She hugged me.I just ha