Lahat ng Kabanata ng Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version): Kabanata 31 - Kabanata 40

ALPHA ZADE I worked out late tonight, I knew it was going to be an off night and most of the pack members would be out. Usually that is something I look forward to because it means the pack house would be less noisy and I can keep to myself, do other things freely. But the thought of her being there made me stay back. When there are more than thirty more people around, it is easier to ignore her. Now though, I won’t have a choice but to see her, feel her near me and just be in her presence. That was never anything for me before but now it is too much. Which is why she has to go! There is nothing to think about, she just has to go before I lose my mind. The living room is less noisy and only about three people are sitting by the large flat screen TV and playing video games, they all greet me without looking up. I head for the dining room, praying to God she chose to eat in her room like she always does. I don’t have such luck of course because as soon as I enter the room, her scent

FEYREDelilah didn’t elaborate on what she meant by Alpha Zade bowing to not taking a mate and I had acted uninterested though curiosity is killing me.Breakfast was awkward to say the least and I wanted it to end even before it started. I didn’t have such luck and it drew on, what was supposed to be at most an hour ended up feeling like ten. Alpha Zade didn’t speak to me, he barely even looked at me which I am not complaining about. Damien didn’t come down thankfully, the tension in the air would have been more if he was here. It is already suffocating as it is.I have probably broken every record for being the worst person in the world by now but I felt relieved when Alpha Zade left the table. It could be that he was done eating but he hadn’t touched his plate. I thought the awkwardness would leave with him but it became worse if that was even possible.The only relief I had was Delilah who sat beside me and she kept telling me in very low voices about the other people at the table.

ALPHA ZADEAyda sighs and scratches behind her ears, she looks away before I get the chance to make out what I’m reading in her eyes.“I want you back there, everyone does,” I add when she still doesn’t speak more than a minute later.“I don’t think I’m ready,” she says, like she always does and I have to fight the tremble I feel in me at that. I nod, smiling and hiding whatever I’m feeling beneath it. “I heard you found your mate,”She turns to me, her eyes wide with…is that glee? Well, that is an unexpected emotion and I feel bad for breaking her heart but I hope she never gets to meet the witch I have to accept is actually my mate because fate decided to give me the finger.“Yeah,” I cleared my throat, swallowing down the bitter feeling in my chest. “Who told you?”She bites her lip, a look I can’t decipher in her eyes. She is much different now, and not just from her hair that wasn’t this white the last time I saw her among other things, I can’t pinpoint what it is about her that

FEYREIn the end, I chickened out and refused to meet with Alpha Zade. Nothing good would have come out of it because I wasn’t prepared. So I need to sit and think before acting.He is smart, a little too smart which means I need to be extra careful and cautious, and I should be two steps ahead of him at all times. Being all friendly with him out of the blue would arouse suspicion, I’m sure the interaction is still on his mind, just like it is on mine. Better if I give him time to get over that then I can find a way to call a truce.I just need to figure out how to get over my distaste for him, or learn how to hide it at the very least.With nothing to do I decided to go for a walk, totally not because I wanted to look around the pack to see if there are more women that need help or, who knows, maybe he has a run down building where he hides all his victims. I can never be too careful.And try to not end up like one of them.Or maybe you are just jumping into conclusions, you have a b

ALPHA ZADEI’d felt like ants were crawling up my skin when I was told my father had returned from his one day trip and he was with Feyre. It reminded me of his trips when my mother was here. He was always traveling for business which equaled him meeting up with his multiple mistresses.A part of me wants to drag her away from him for the fear of him ruining her, but then I remembered her arms around Damien’s neck and I don’t feel the need quite as deep anymore. She is like him anyways, no wonder they get along very well.Mind numbing pain in my jaw makes stars dance in my vision. I’m jolted back to the present with the violent punch and I grunt lowly, both in annoyance and from the sting.The sound of Damien’s feet bouncing on the boxing platform rings in my head before I regain my composure. I give my head a little shake, getting rid of the haziness in my eyes.“Get your head in the game, man.” He groans, coming at me again.Now that I’m paying attention, I see his intention and blo