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I slipped out of bed once I was sure she was asleep. I’d heard Mom’s ringtone earlier, but I was otherwise occupied. I shouldn’t put off calling her back for much longer, or she’d keep calling and wake my girl up. No doubt she’d been calling to give me an earful for not coming to see her, but I’m sure I can get her to calm down and erase whatever hurt she’s feeling. I hadn’t thought this thing through very well, I realize, knowing how sensitive Mom can be, but my only thought was of getting Silla home and settled before her life here began. I think I’m beginning to see why friends in the past always seemed to change once they got married and settled down. It seems to be a given that once you change your life in that way, there’s no help for it. I’ll be the first to say I never expected to fall victim to the same malady, but here we are, day one, and I’ve already fallen down the rabbit hole. Like now, I needed to call Mom but was finding it hard to leave her side even though

SILLA I can get used to this. I’ve been in the city for four days and I’m already hooked on the sights and sounds and the people, so many people. For a people watcher like me, it’s like paradise. I’m sure I would’ve loved the city no matter what, but experiencing it with Gabriel makes it all the more special, and I can’t believe that this is my life. My mother, who I talk to every single day, is happy and seems to be flourishing in her new life so far. I talk to my Dad as well and it’s getting easier to accept that all of this is happening, though sometimes it still seems unreal. A part of me is still a bit wary and leaves me with that feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop. Gabriel keeps busy throughout the day when we get back from my little adventures as he calls them, and it’s the first time since we’ve met that I’ve been away from him for any length of time. He's usually just down the hall in his home office with the door closed, but it f

My usual stoic approach to things failed me, and I was more nervous than expected on the way to her appointment with the doctor. She seemed fine since she had no idea what I was really after, and her excited chatter each time she saw something new out the window helped keep me grounded, at least for a little while. Suspecting she was pregnant and having her pregnancy confirmed by a professional are two completely different things, though I can tell you that. I didn’t know that seeing the black and white ultrasound printout would make such a difference, but the thing that surprised me most and put fear in me was the fact that she was carrying twins. She seemed to be in shock, so I had to get my act together to offer her the strength she needed, though all the angst I had since the beginning came rushing back. I wanted more than anything to know what she was thinking, feeling, but for the first time as a man, I was lost for words. I didn’t want to hear anything negative about my

I woke with a sense of excitement that quickly faded into fear, doubt, and uncertainty. Is this too soon? Will it change the way he feels about me? Will he regret getting involved with me? Those thoughts played hell on my mind, not to mention my own personal demons from the messed-up childhood I’d had and the fear that I was in no way ready to be anyone’s mother.   This wasn’t a fairy tale. The realization gave me a suffocating feeling as I jolted upright with my heart racing into my lungs. My palms grew sweaty as I looked around the unfamiliar room, the same one I had been so giddy about not that long ago. Reality was like an ice-cold bucket of water poured over my head with vengeance.   How could I have been so stupid to think that someone like me deserved all this? And Gabriel? I barely knew him. My hand went to my stomach as these things fought against my natural instinct to trust. He’d shown me only kindness true, but bringing a child, an innocent being, into the mix was s

I waited on tenterhooks for the phone to ring, eager to see the results of my handiwork. It was sheer luck that I happened to see Gabriel and that girl coming out of the building that day and went in to ask. The receptionist at the doctor’s office knew me well, and all it took was a smile and a coy word for her to open up and tell me the truth. I didn’t come right out and ask, of course, but since she knew that I knew the family, she didn’t see the harm in sharing the good news with me. It was all I could do to keep the smile on my face while my heart broke and my mind filled with anger and envy. Why her? Why should she be the one to have his baby? A country bumpkin who didn’t fit in with us wasn’t one of us. How could he? I’d rushed out of there, leaving the stupid woman to think that I was in a hurry to share in the good news, but it was so I could find a private spot to throw up. All of my cleverly laid plans over the years had been for nothing. The dreams I had built ar