Semua Bab Sweet Temptation: Bab 91 - Bab 100

Suddenly you are ripped into being alive. And, life is pain and, life is suffering and, life is horror but my god you are alive and it is spectacular. -Joseph Campbell. |I R I S|Have you ever felt empty to a point that there is nothing left worthy enough to be felt? Like someone have dug deeper inside you and pulled everything from you, leaving you empty and numb for so long until there was nothing left. I am right now sitting by the side of window, looking outside, blankly. There are a lot of things that could be appreciated like the birds in the sky, the natural and aromatic scent of the nature. The clear sky with the lightest shade of blue and clouds spread like cotton in it. But it looks black and white for some reasons. Everything does. Black is not me favourite color. Never have been. I always have been a girl of colors like a rainbow and now when I can not find those colors I feel frustrated. But I am too numb to react. So, I just sit

You laughed like a metaphor I have been trying to write down for years. -Rudy Francisco.|I R I S|One week later..I am sitting with Rowan in the hall, playing chess as he makes silly jokes in an attempt to make me laugh. It works because I smile every now and then. I have been doing better. Maybe because I cried. That day I cried my heart out in his arms and for a moment I thought he cried too. But I was so lost in my tears to notice his. "You are not dirty, Iris!" He yelled when I struggled in his arms to rush to the bathroom and clean myself for nth time in this day. "I am. Let me go. I need to shower." I protested kicking in the air when he grabbed me by my waist. He would not let me. He says it is been enough and he would not let me do this to myself. "No, you are fucking not!" He shouted and the anger in his voice made me slow down my struggle. "You are as beautiful as you were before." He tells me. But I do not believe him. If I am bea

He lulls me to sleep and kisses my eyes do not tell anybody that the big bad wolf is a puppy in disguise. -Unknown.|I R I S|"This is fucking insane." Rowan commented when he saw the piece of writing I have been working on since last few days. Yes, I started to write. On my last therapy session, yes I have stopped therapy because I feel better, my therapist suggested that I write my feelings on a paper, her idea was to burn it but it turned out beautiful and it looked like a piece of my heart penned down on a paper so it was hard to put fire to that piece of paper. So, instead, I just tucked it safely between my books. It was between me and that book until, of course, Rowan found it.He read it once, twice and then thrice before commenting. I would not say ot is bad but I do not think it is that good. Rowan is probably only saying it because he is my friend and he can not insult my intiative in something special on a topic as sensitiv

|L O R E N Z O|"That sounds good." I say on the phone to my older brother who has been eating my ear since morning about his new auction. "Only good?" He asked being a fucking perfectionist when it comes to work. "No, fucking best." I corrected myself and hoped for him to actually buy it instead of going back to changing every single detail about it, again. "That did not sound convincing." He said, tone of suspicion evident in his voice like I am some criminal, which I am, but still he sounded like a fucking FBI which he obviously is not. I know because he would not survive,Or let them survive. "Why are you annoying me today? Where is Zyra?" I finally asked not being able to cope up with his bullshit. Only she is good at it, god knows how. "She left with the girls to prepare for auction." He answered me and I can imagine him pouting and whining like a bitch because the fucking kid did not wake up with his fluffy teddy bear. "So, you thought it is best to ruin my morning?" I qu

You are the only person I have ever met who seems to have the faintest conception of what I mean when I say a thing. -Virginia Woolf. |I R I S|When we entered the ballroom I never expected it to be this huge and amazing. There are a lot of people filling the space inside the ballroom when we entered. Most of them are standing in pairs and are twinning. It makes me smile. I look at Lorenzo by my side who is wearing the blue tie to match with me. As if feeling my eyes on his he turned and met my eyes with his gray ones. The world around us stopped for a minute when he stared into my eyes, intensely. It's been months of us dating yet everything disappears when he appears in my view. "Hello brother," Nicolas, Lorenzo's older brother, greeted him and also pulling us out of our lala land. I let go off his hand, letting him get engaged in a conversation with his brother. "Hey, Iris." Nicolas smile at me almost politely and I had to hold my surp