9It was late at night when the plane landed. After checking all the ways to return, I found that I had to wait for at least eight hours.Sitting on the chair at the airport, I mulled over the words that Adrian had sent me and had recalled.All kinds of thoughts kept flashing through my mind. My soul was filled with questions and answers, and my mood was changing because of them. As a result, I was covered in cold sweat.I even morbidly felt that everyone passing by was looking at me with sympathy.The passage of time seemed to be slower when I was waiting. I wanted to do something to change my mood. At this time, Ethan sent me a friend request again.It seemed that only with him could I openly talk about the complicated situation.We were about the same age, and he was the only outsider who knew the load on my mind.Was he an outsider?Before I could answer this question, I had accepted his friend request with my emotions taking the upper hand."Haven't you gone to bed yet?"

13Perhaps subconsciously, I wanted to wait for Adrian to get married before going back to face him, so I kept postponing the date of my return with all kinds of excuses.But I didn't expect that no one had urged me to go back.My partner said, "It doesn't matter. Enjoy your vacation with pay. At worst, I'll only have porridge for two more years."My parents said, "I really enjoyed myself when you were not at home. Anyway, you are spending your own money. Enjoy your time for as long as you can. Just don't forget to bring me a gift."Ethan said, "The photos you took during your trip are so beautiful. People like you are born to be travelers."…At first, I didn't find there was anything wrong with it. But gradually, I found that every time I chatted with them, it was me who was looking for an excuse not to go back and it was them who were finding an excuse to stop me from going back.Did something happen?I asked many people what had happened, but I got no answer. In the end, I

4I didn't know how long I scolded Jake before I finally fell asleep.In the dream, I went back to the day when I first lived together with Jake. He was clumsy, but extremely careful in every move for fear of hurting me.Obviously, his handsome face flushed, but he was still trying to be brave, telling me that he knew it and he could do it.He was determined not to give up.The progress was slow. When it was finally about to happen, he suddenly stopped and looked me up and down, "Sophie, I don't know why, but I suddenly feel like crying."I, who had been crying, froze.I didn’t know what to say anymore.I wanted to know why he wanted to cry. Was the reason the same as mine?As soon as the sun came out, I woke up and returned to reality from the dream, feeling very confused and depressed.I got up, tidy up briefly, and went out for a morning run.As soon as I finished stretching at the intersection, I heard a familiar voice from behind."Morning," Jake ran to me from the ear

8"During this period of time, I have reflected a lot. I ignored your feelings. I just wanted to rush forward, but left you behind. I will change."Jake refused to let me go. When I turned my head, he stood there with a cane, making sure to meet my eyes and look at my face."It's always right to work hard. I couldn't keep up with you. What would you change? Jake, we don't fit together. I don't want to live in your light forever. I don’t want to worry that you will be stolen by someone better or you will get tired of me."You can meet such beautiful and interesting girls every day, but I can only watch your wonderful life from a distance. I am fed up with this kind of life, do you understand? When you see me suspicious every day, won't you feel annoyed? I am annoyed by myself."I spoke my mind once I started talking.He quietly listened to me and his eyes softened, "It's really difficult for me to give you a sense of security in this circle. I've considered working behind the scen

4Darrian walked out without a word, leaving me on the floor.I was stunned by my own actions.The last two words on my screen were "I do".I did ruin my love life for good.I curled up in a ball and waited for a long time before I gathered the courage to peek at Darrian through the door.He searched the area for any signs of trouble. I watched him from a distance, hoping he would notice me."Darrian, are you ignoring me?" I asked in a weak voice.He paused for a second, then turned his head to face me. "I need some time to think."I felt a flicker of hope, and he added, "Calm down and have fun.""Sure," I said. Well, at least he was still talking to me. That was something.I went back to my room and tried to find some nice pajamas that could impress Darrian, but I ended up falling asleep on my stomach.When I opened my eyes, it was already seven in the morning.Darrian was still leaning on the door, not moving a muscle.Poor guy. He must have had a hard night.I felt so