I was so worried that Ben would find out that I hadn't stopped fucking behind his back. Satya seemed to know when Ben left and he would come to me, offering a different kind of sex. Maybe I was bad for enjoying every sin on offer.Now, Ben is by my side, asleep after our heated tussle a few hours ago. His face looks peaceful adorned with an infectious smile. In one word, handsome.I like him in a different way than I liked Satya. I'm filled with fear of losing Ben right now, but my instincts always go crazy when I'm with Satya.I was afraid Ben would realize that I was also fucking someone else when we made love. I was afraid my pussy would feel too loose for him. Satya always said that my pussy kept choking him, but Satya's dick was different from Ben's dick. I was afraid that mine would be ruined by Satya's fantasy of having one hole crammed with many dicks. I felt scrambled and satisfied at the same time.Then the eyes before me blinked. Several times until the gaze turned observan

"You're getting stickier and stickier, like glue that's hard to remove." Ben's friends kept complaining about my current closeness with Ben. His name is Angga. He said he used to be Ben's friend from high school. I met him a few times and couldn't help but laugh. This one friend of Ben's often acted silly. Most surprisingly, Angga was not at all interested in the women around him. At first I thought Angga was gay, but it turned out that women were the ones who fit in around Ben. "Don't see each other often, how?" Ben responded to Angga's grumbling no less adorably without releasing me from his embrace.Angga slammed the locker door so hard that I was startled myself. He said, "I'm jealous. If only-"Ben opened his mouth, probably to get angry, but took a deep breath before responding, "You didn't try to catch up Maureen?""Just wait," Angga explained as he replaced his work suit with loose pants that I thought were used by fighters. "Resti is furious with me for impregnating Mauree

A few days after I caught Rena coming out of the restroom with Matthew, it was hard to get close or trust her again. My thesis trial was over, other campus affairs were done, it was just a matter of finishing my internship at one of the private companies-not owned by my step-grandfather. Yeah, step-grandfather. Kea's mom is not my real mom, she's my stepmom. I only came into my papa's family when my real mother died when I was about ten years old. I don't really remember. All I know is that since I was a baby, Mama Kea often brought me to recognize her family without mentioning my mother. Satya's statement about my father's past is true. Papa never kept secret his forbidden relationship with Mom from me. And I often felt disappointed that I was born from an illegitimate relationship. That's why I don't really care about a person's background as long as that person can change. Well, so far I've been okay with being disappointed many times. And seeing Rena fall asleep on the bench on

"Are you satisfied with exposing my shame?" Rena glanced at me with her puffy eyes. Occasionally Rena rubbed the snot on the tip of her nose. Her tears were no longer falling although her voice still sounded hoarse. She looked at me like an enemy who had been very mean to her. It's my fault for not being able to take care of her and blaming everything on her, but... ah, what defense am I doing to convince myself? "How many times do I have to explain that I have nothing to do with ...," Rena stretched the air in front of her, seemingly trying to remember, then massaged her temples, "what's Karin's husband's name?" "Matthew," I said the fucking asshole's name. "Yeah, Matt. I don't know who Matt is." Rena sneered, scowling in the other direction of the room we were currently occupying. Is she trying to lie by saying she doesn't know Matthew? Ever since Mama and Papa came, lecturing us that we should try to leave the past behind and not bring it all into our relationship now, they lo

The night before .... "I thought Rena was so innocent." Karin sounded very disappointed. Her voice was full of emphasized anger. Even so, she just stood at the edge of the pool with her arms crossed and looked at the depth of the water. "What did you say before, Ben? Rena is an exhibitionist?" "Ben...?" Papa came over to me, also at Karin's side. "I told you about this, didn't you?" I had deliberately pulled Karin away, away from the intervention of parents who might choose to keep their children in a marriage that wasn't healthy at all. Even though Papa himself had asked Mom to let go of the marriage even though they weren't together in the end. It's not that I don't believe in the bonds of marriage, but ... I've come to think of giving Rena a choice. In marriage or free. However, if I let her go, it means I didn't fulfill my promise. "What did you say to Ben, Bas?" Mama Kea, who I last saw drop off Rena to the room, actually turned Papa's presence to face her. There seems to be