I roll over the bed with a sleepy moan. I am having a wonderful dream that involves two undressed men, one of them looks like Matt and the other may or may not look like Austin, I don’t want to go deep into details. The men were all over me and I just couldn’t control myself, their bodies were heatedly against mine. I could feel every part of their body on mine. I let out a sleepy groan as I rolled over and lay on my stomach. My face is directly against the bed and a pillow is on top of my head. I have been out all night with Matt and honestly, it’s quite exhausting to sneak out past midnight and come back only a few hours before sunrise. Matt won’t understand how exhausting it is so basically I can not tell him that otherwise, he’s gonna think I’m coming up with a bunch of stupid excuses which clearly I am not. After my conversation on the phone with Matt yesterday, I knew I had to fulfill my promise and meet him today otherwise my relationship with him is gonna be over and I do no

~BELLA’S POVI arrive at the spot where Matt and I usually meet twenty minutes late. I already know he is going to be very mad at me for making him wait. Another thing about Matt is that he hates it when someone makes him wait, he’d rather make them wait for him instead. After the disturbing conversation I had with Austin the other day about sneaking out of the house. I thought about never sneaking out of the house and meeting Matt but here I am, doing the exact thing I said I won’t. I know it’s pretty dumb of me to come up here and meet Matt but I did a lot of thinking about me coming here. I came up with the conclusion that Matt and I have to take things a little low for Austin to get over his suspicions. I don’t want any of this to be caught by Austin otherwise I’m dead and I’m not ready for that. I don’t know how Matt is gonna react to this but he just has to understand. It’s the best thing to do. We need to create space between us before Austin’s suspicions grow bigger. It’s ba

"You mind if I join you miss?" I ask the lady watering the plants. She is a blonde, she is dressed in the servant's outfit; a white shirt and black skirts, and she appears to be in her late thirties. She turns to look at me with a bright smile on her face, she says "I don’t mind you joining me but I don’t think Lycan Austin will be happy when he sees you working with me." Her voice is sweet and innocent "He’s never happy so it won’t be the first time," I say"I don’t know," She shrugs, with a slight trace of concern in her voice. "I don’t want to upset him.""You don’t have to worry about that, he is always upset and even if he gets more upset, I don’t care," I say walking towards her. I seriously don’t care about anything Austin does or says. He is an asshole. I can’t believe I tried to be nice to him by making a cup of coffee for him but in return, he just acted shitty like he always does. He’s such a bitch!"Are you sure you want to help me? I don’t want to get you or me in troub

~ BELLA’S POV"What!" I exclaim. Is he mad or did I hear him wrongly?"Don’t you understand English?" Austin scoffs raking his hand through his hair "It means that we are having sex so take off your clothes or I take them off myself!""Are you insane," I say backing away from him "We are not doing anything like that.""Then I guess you will have to forget about your sister’s treatment.""You can’t threaten me with that. We signed a contract.""And the contract says that we will consummate," He casually says like it’s no big deal "So don’t waste my time, and let’s get this over with." He says and begins to take off his sweatpants.This isn’t happening. I can’t have sex with him and what stupid part of the contract is that? It shouldn’t even be there. I gulped down the lump that formed in my throat as I licked my dry lips watching his eyes tracing my actions before he finally completely takes off his trousers leaving him in just his shorts. "You better stop what you are doing. This is

~ BELLA’S POVI couldn’t sleep last night, not because I was hurt but because I couldn’t stop thinking about what Austin said to me. He made me feel dirty of myself, made me feel like I slut; indeed he was right I let him touch me. I tried to think about him or anything else but my mind kept drowning back to him. I don’t know why but I don’t believe his words, I think he was just trying to convince himself. The way he behaved last night made me very curious, I want to know why he said all that. Did he mean it or he just said it to hurt me? Either way, I feel like something is wrong with him. I think Austin is hiding something about himself and he doesn’t want me to find out. When he kissed me last night, it was different from the previous time. I felt a strange connection between us and somehow I saw a different look in his eyes. I saw light and darkness warring within their depths as if he was battling against himself wanting to stop himself. I know I sound crazy but it’s true- wel