ANNA'S POV Jonathan didn't say much on the drive home, and I didn't push him to. I had learned, over the past several months, the difference between a silence that needed filling and a silence that simply needed company, and this one, I could tell, was the second kind. He went straight to the study when we got in, not to work, I realized when I followed him a few minutes later, but simply to sit, staring at nothing in particular, a man trying to hold the pieces of his own history in some kind of order that made sense. A year ago, I might have given him the space I assumed he wanted. I would have gone upstairs, told myself I was respecting his need to process alone, and quietly resented, underneath that respect, how far apart it always seemed to leave us. I thought, standing in the doorway watching him, of the night after Lucas's funeral, when I had done exactly that, retreated to our bedroom and left him alone downstairs for hours, both of us convinced at the time that we were simp
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