Lahat ng Kabanata ng A Beta's Regret - A Twist of Fate? : Kabanata 41 - Kabanata 50

Ruby is blocking me, I am sure of it. I need to be with her. I want to be with her. But then there is Rose. I betrayed our mate bond tonight. I think I need to arrange to speak to Rose. Do I want to reject her? Do I think I want to look to make Ruby my chosen mate if she would have me? The connection with her is different. It felt real. I don’t understand what went on. But she had something that Rose didn’t. A personality for a start. But I felt something with Ruby, like I hadn’t felt with anyone before. Maybe I have been gradually falling for her and been oblivious. Our friends have been joking about it, when, in truth, it has been happening in front of our eyes and we didn’t even know!One thing I do know, my mind is fucked! Completely frazzled. Such a mess with confusion. I don't know what to do. Or what I want. What is best? Such a mess. Why couldn't I have realised this about Ruby before meeting Rose? I could have made her my mate and there would have been no problem then. Argh!

I wake up passed out on the spare bedroom floor. It is the room I use as a gym. I clearly pushed myself that hard that I tired myself out and never got to bed. Though at least I got some sleep I guess. I tried numerous times to mind link Ruby but her guards remained up all night. I tried to call her too but her phone was off. So it is safe to say she is back to avoiding me. I won’t say I regret the kiss, because I don’t think I could ever regret that, but I don’t want things to go back to how they were when she is doing everything in her power to avoid me. I slowly stand up, my body aching, having slept on the floor. I see many messages on my phone from my friends and family, as I pick it up all asking where I had got to. I would guess they had tried mind linking but I too had put my guards up once I got home not wanting to talk. Needing space and most definitely not wanting to talk about the shit going down. I scroll down my contacts to find Rose’s number, knowing it would no

I am beyond frustrated having to leave Ruby in the middle of this conversation. We seemed to be getting somewhere, or that is what I was hoping. I was hoping I could steer the conversation in the direction I wanted it to go, but then the bloody guard interrupted us and would not reply. He would be getting a mouthful off of me when I see him for choosing not to answer my mindlinks. Ruby seemed unbothered by me having to leave mid-conversation either, which I think frustrated me even further. I know she said she had plans with Lola and Esme, but still, I thought she would want to continue the chat we were having. I headed to the gates, having to walk, seeing that I had gone to Ruby’s house on foot this morning. Usually I would have jumped into my car. I try again to link the guard, Dean, but he still did not respond. I swear when I see him he is in for a mouthful from me! You don’t ask for me to get there and then not respond. Unless something had happened and he couldn’t reply? B

We stepped from the car and Rose just stood waiting, clearly expecting me or the guard who had come to pick us up to collect her bags from the trunk. Yes, this girl has been so used to having people run around after her. I can feel myself getting irritated. I go and collect the bags and she still doesn’t move, nor acknowledge the fact Blake had driven us here. “Thanks for driving us, Blake.” I smile at him. “No worries Beta.” He nods and gets back into the car, without even acknowledging Rose. The look of disgust on her face was pretty obvious. Yet if she doesn’t make the effort to mix and be friendly with pack members, then what does she expect? “Right, let’s get you inside” I tell her. I see her looking at my house. Her lip is curled slightly, in distaste it appears. “Something wrong?” I ask her. “No, of course not, just a bit different to our houses at home.” she smiled sweetly. Oh, so it would appear my home is not up to her standard, going off the expression

I see Rose acting shiftily and it irritates me. It makes no sense, she has just turned up here. Not to mention the fact she hadn’t even told her family she was coming. It all seems very suspicious. Makes me wonder if she played a large part in all the difficulties going on in the businesses and was looking for a way to escape from it all. Having a fated mate in a different country was a perfect escape. We had been having a private investigation into both Rose and the family business, mainly to ensure we made the right decision for the company with regards to the business deal, but also in a way to protect Jake. Though he is not aware of the element of the investigation surrounding Rose specifically too. We were due the results anytime soon, and from the brief messages we have had, it was not promising. Kai and Cleo are busy playfighting again, the two of them seem to love doing this at the moment, though I know it is something that many brothers and sisters do at this age. I k