Semua Bab Profession: Bab 41 - Bab 47

“What are you going to do now Caro? I never thought she would have to find out like this, it just makes it worse.” Julia says worriedly.(Dear.)I sigh, rubbing my hands over my tired eyes, feeling more dejected than I’ve ever been in my whole life. Even though she deserved to be angry, she didn’t have to say something like that about my father. My father never hit me and my siblings. My father who always gave us everything to make us not know what it feels like to have nothing. My father whom I hate for taking thousands of lives, the same father I love for being mine.To others, he is the monster he is. To us, he is everything. I don’t expect people to understand that, but I can’t let them have their tongues if they say something about him that doesn’t rub me right.But still, Willow gets away with it. She gets to scream at me and judge my decisions, and I allow it because she’s Willow, not anyone else. I feel hopeless and powerless when she’s the subject of the taking. I don’t know

It feels weird. Once again, I feel nervous, that’s what this skittish feeling is right? I want to tell Willow the truth and it comes with the chances of me asking for something more and maybe being a little selfish. So, it’s making me feel this way.It feels weird.We’re sitting at the dinner table and I’m waiting for her to take a bite of her food before she gives it to me. It has no meaning, but I’d like to see her take the first bite before I do.“Let’s be the fairly odd parents for Halloween,” Lucas says to sister and she nods excitedly as she chews her dinner of pizza we were having.“Do you really have to eat a half-bitten pizza?” Willow whispers to me, her brows coming together for a frown meanwhile her cheeks flushed bright red.I looked down at the plate she set down in front of me and raised my brow at the pizza she had bitten.“No,” I answer honestly and Lucas looks up at me, thinking I was talking to him. He shakes his head when he realizes I wasn’t. “But I want to,” I tel

WillowA few days earlier.“Willow,” Julia called quietly as we prepped the children’s lunch.“Yes Julia,” I answered and turned to see her holding the saltshaker. “Oh my, don’t tell me I mixed up the salt and sugar again!” I exclaimed.She shook her head as she chuckled.“I don’t even know how you manage to switch them each time.” She says and I puff out my cheeks, feeling heavily embarrassed. “But there’s something else I wanted to discuss with you.” She says and my eyes widen.“Oh, am I in trouble? Did I do something wrong?” I asked.“No, my dear,” Julia says as she emptied the sugar from the saltshaker. “It’s not that, it’s…it’s just, never mind.”“Oh, come on!” I whine. “You can’t just do that, just tell me what it is.”She pauses from refilling the saltshaker with salt and looks at me before sighing and placing it carefully on the counter. Julia looked at me with a small smile, but I felt my heart rate pick up at how sad it was.She reached out and held my hand, her eyes never w

Willow's POV.“I woke up really early this morning because I thought I was going to have classes but then I remembered it was Halloween break. I was so glad.” Lucas tells me as he spoons his cereal.“Yay!” Isabella my head la squeals in excitement, throwing her tiny arms in the air. I shake my head at them and wipe away breadcrumbs from the little girl’s mouth.The kids are so pumped for Halloween. You can’t imagine the look on their faces when they both got notices for Halloween break, it was wholesome.“Have you decided on what to wear for Halloween?” Julia asks us as she emerges from the kitchen with a jug of orange juice in her hand.I shake my head. “I’m not really looking forward to being in a costume,” I tell her honestly and she laughs.“Wooly can be a princess!” Isabella exclaims with a giddy giggle.“Yeah, easily,” Lucas says smiling so wide that his dimples looked like they were about to sink into his mouth.“Mhm, I’ll think about it,” I tell them. “What about you, Bella?”