Semua Bab The Hockey Alpha was My Childhood Sweetheart: Bab 171 - Bab 180

My emotions continued to surge uncontrollably, making my vision blur as tears streamed down my cheeks.The weight of everything crushed me, making me feel like I couldn't breathe.The one person that I thought I could trust had been lying to me for who knows how long. I didn't know what parts of Lucas were real and what parts were fake.I clung to James, my fingers digging into his back as if he could anchor me to reality.Breathe, Shana. You're fine. You're not going to lose control. You've got this. Just breathe.I squeezed my eyes shut trying to remind myself that I was okay."Shana, you're really worrying me," James said from somewhere above me as he continued to hold me. He started to rub my back gently in a soothing motion. "Are you feeling okay?"I nodded, unable to voice the words. In reality, I wasn't feeling okay - not in the slightest."Don't worry, Shana. You've got me." James's words comforted me, but also made the pain worse.I thought I had Lucas... I thought I had his

Lucas POV"Security, really?" James asked with an eye-roll. He turned toward Shana, not deigning to even acknowledge Victoria and me any longer. "Come on, let's get the fuck out of here."Mrs. Covington looked more than pleased with herself as Shana looked like she was on the verge of tears.Suddenly, I regretted every single action I had taken. I regretted going to my father with the idea to get engaged to Victoria again, and I regretted keeping it all a secret from the two most important people in my life.Seriously, what the hell had I been thinking? Clearly, I wasn't thinking because no one in their right mind would ever do such a thing, knowing that their friends could potentially get hurt.I hated that Shana was looking to James for comfort instead of me right now. I should be the one to reassure her that everything would be okay, and I had just lost that privilege.Neither of them said anything else to us as James steered the both of them out of the party.I was fighting an int

I felt numb as James drove us away from the party. My anger and confusion had morphed into disbelief. I didn't even feel like I was living my own reality.James and I had been quiet for the last five minutes. We've been digesting our feelings in the silence.Knowing that the people closest to you could hurt you so brutally and recklessly felt dangerous. I gave Lucas parts of me that nobody had ever seen before.I'd shared things with him that meant something to me, and he just went behind my back.I think what hurt the most was that Lucas was doing it willingly, knowing that there was a possibility I would find out.My brain just couldn't process the fact that Lucas would do this to me.Glancing at James, it felt weird to see him without his normal cheerful smile. I hated that they had done that to him.He looked like he was depleted of any joy, and I missed hearing his constant annoying and obnoxious jokes.How could Lucas and Victoria betray us like this? Did they even care?"I can'

Lucas and Victoria exchanged a glance as if sharing an understanding. The two of them knew that there was no point in avoiding it any longer– the truth had to come out eventually."Alright." Lucas took a deep breath and began, "Shana, James, we owe you an explanation.""You think?" James asked with an eye roll."Would you just let him talk?" Victoria asked, giving James her own glare.His eyes cut to hers with venom. "I don't think you want to try arguing with me right now.""Or what?" Victoria threw her hand on her hips and gave him a pointed stare, as if challenging him. "What are you going to?""Guys, now is not the time to be starting an argument," I interrupted them before they got too into it.It was hard to stop the two of them from wanting to fight with each other.Lucas took a deep breath and gestured to the couch. "You guys may want to sit down, this could take a while.""I'm okay standing," James said with an air of defiance. He crossed his arms over his chest to prove a po

"Who is it?" Lucas asked, noticing the stricken look on my face.I showed him my phone screen, his eyes scanning the caller ID. "It's my dad.""Let me answer it." Lucas held out his hand, and I could see the way his jaw tightened.I knew he wasn't happy with my father about what he had done to me. Lucas only wanted to start an argument with him."No, you're going to yell at him.""He deserves more than just that," Lucas argued, his eyes hardening. "He's lucky he's in hiding somewhere, otherwise I would pay him a visit and really let him know how I feel."As harsh as Lucas was being, I agreed with him on some extent and it warmed my heart that he felt so protective over me."Fine, if you don't want me to answer it. You answer it," he encouraged, sensing the gravity of the situation. "Do you want a moment of privacy?"I shook my head, my hand trembling as I answered the call. I wanted Lucas here for moral support, and I wanted him to hear whatever my father had to say.I put my phone on