Semua Bab RIVER: Bab 21 - Bab 30

RiverRight now I was battling between our friendship and this intense attraction for each other. Blame it on all those years of bottled-up desire we never acted on.I never thought I’d have Zach in my arms, on top of me, on my couch, alone, grinding against each other. Nope. This was one of my past daydreams coming true that I’ve had a couple of times when I watched my rom-com. I always pictured the characters as us.His heated gaze intensified the flame inside me. I felt like a needy teen wanting him to speed things up and get to the good part, but he had other plans.He cupped my left breast, lowered his head to it, and gently bit my boob. I closed my eyes, arched, and pulled my bottom lip in between my teeth. That felt incredibly hot. Mind you I still had my top on. I didn’t have a bra though because it didn’t require one. At this point, I wish I didn’t have anything on, but that would lead to other things and I…just couldn’t.Mind over matter, River.“Take your shirt off Zach,” I

AlecI inhaled deeply taking in the chilly air that enveloped me and watched as the warm steam came out of my mouth. It was a cold, lively night here in San Antonio. Jaylen and I decided to come down to the River Walk for the weekend before the Winter Break began.Soon the streets of this aesthetic environment will become busy and overcrowded, making it unable to enjoy the Christmas lights. They hung everywhere creating a magical atmosphere. It was my first time coming here, to San Antone, as the San Antonians call it, during this time of the year since I moved down to Austin. People bragged so much about how downtown was decorated beautifully during the holidays so I wanted to come and see for myself. I needed to get away anyway.It still hurts like hell to see River with him.I haven’t been the same ever since that night and Jaylen thinks I fell hard for her. I’m beginning to think he’s right. I haven’t been with another girl and I don’t want to. If it’s not her then I don’t want to

RiverSheesh! I can’t explain this indescribable feeling inside. Again I ask, is it possible to like two people at the same time? I mean am I going crazy here? Am I wrong for feeling this way? Was this cheating on Zach?Erica seemed to be on cloud nine. She zoned out as she watched Jaylen leave and he was the same, and I’d hoped this would be the beginning of something for the both of them.Zach on the other hand, couldn’t stop glaring at me. He didn’t have to voice out his thoughts…I already knew what he was thinking, but his glare was making me nervous. He acts like I planned these sudden encounters on purpose. He didn’t take it well when I told him about the run-in with Alec in the hallway leaving the kissing me on the cheek part out.Erica was pissed, telling me I shouldn’t have said anything to him, but it wasn’t like me to withhold things from him.I wanted our relationship to be based on truth and trust. I wouldn’t do anything to hurt him or throw it all away for another guy. I

AlecI dropped my girlfriend off at the dorms. She sensed the shift in my attitude and the truth is that I didn’t want to be with her for the rest of the evening. I wanted to be left alone. I didn’t even kiss her goodbye.Seeing River today brought forth those undeniable feelings, the ones I tried hiding away. Michelle shouldn’t have insisted on seeing her bike. She complicated things for me.I have never and I mean never felt this confused in my life as I did today and I’m upset at myself for it. She seems to be doing fine and I wish I knew what her secret was, but would I like the answer?After brooding and contemplating, I’ve concluded that I need to leave. If I don’t get drafted this year, I will transfer to another University and move on with my life.I don’t belong here anymore. If I don’t have her, there’s nothing left for me to do here. Watching her with him is excruciating and I feel like it’s slowly consuming me.“You okay?” Jaylen asked, concerned etched on his face. I met

RiverThat evening, we ended up at his place. Kissing until we fell asleep, holding each other. I love him and that was the truth, but I also felt things I could never explain or understand for Alec.February was finally over with and March was no different, flying through. During spring break we ended up going to Destin, Florida. We were thinking about going to New Braunfels, Comal River but ended up at the Emerald Coast. It was beautiful! We ended up sharing and renting a home.Jason invited a cute blonde as his plus one, Delilah ended up going back to her hometown to see her family, and Erica invited Jaylen.Erica told me that Alec went home to spend time with his parents. It made me happy that he left to build memories with them. He still had them both and from what I’ve heard, they made up.The paparazzi were brutal. His family name was everywhere in the magazines and TMZ for quite a while.Our spring break was very well spent. Bonfires, music, dancing, playing volleyball, swimmi