Semua Bab Her Feral Professor [ Your Professor Shouldn't Taste You]: Bab 121 - Bab 130

I know I am not passing out and yet the intensity of the moment tips me so close to the edge of oblivion that I feel like I am losing my mind to the intensity. Zane pulls us both down to the floor, he is kneeling behind me and he is thrusting into me at a fast pace that could rip me apart. He hits all the spot inside me and even the ones I didn't know existed and all I can do is roll my eyes to the back of skull and scream. I can no longer moan quietly anymore. It is too much. The rapture of emotions travels straight to my brain and whilst I know that nobody ever died from an orgasm, I genuinely feel like I might. It is too much. Too soon. Too high. Too intense. Zane is breathing harshly behind me. He is also moaning without inhibition, it only makes me wetter, my juices slide down my legs, the sound of our bodies moving against eachother is the most erotic thing ever and I can't get enough. I stretch my hand behind me to hold his thrusting hips, he grabs the hand and pulls me back

"I have to protect you even if it kills me. I should have let you go when you wanted us to have a break that night. I acted selfishly, holding onto you. And I know you said I shouldn't, but it is all I can say. I am sorry, Alex. I love you enough to want the best for you even if it tears me apart. You are young. You are promising. And you have incredible potential. I would hate to see all that go to waste because I just couldn't do the right thing. I want to be able to face Daisy without any weak or vulnerable points she can leverage on. I know she won't hurt Luna so we are equal on that end. I have to let you go. It kills me to. But it is what I have to do. It is the only way to protect you. I hope you can look back one day and understand my point of view and forgive me. I love you, Alex and I know you love me too but I am old enough to know that love is not enough." Zane exhales after his long monologue. He exhales like he is letting out all the air in his lungs to make room for me.

I stare at her blankly. Of course she comes to that conclusion. First she picks me up from that neighborhood with its middle class family residential area air, and I start crying in her car, throwing up and looking like shit, talking about being heartbroken by a man that tells me I am young and would find someone else. Her maternal instincts kick in and she is jumping to conclusions. "Sorry ma'am, please can we start the ride? I have to get to my exam hall in twenty minutes." I say, still avoiding her eyes. When she simply turns around and starts the car without another word, I exhale in relief. The ride continues in awkward silence. I do my best to clean up the throw up on her seats, and I look at the app for tipping options. I open my messenger and Maggie has left me a ton of messages. My eyes blur at the sight of them, I shake my head to discourage the tears. The car stops and I look up, we are right in front of the department building. I glance at my phone, I have about fifteen

"Alex and I are no longer together." I say. We are in her car. It is quiet. I know Luna would probably rush out to come ask me why I didn't leave her anything in a few minutes so I want to salvage the short time before she interrupts us to have this conversation with Daisy.I know I vowed never to do this again with Daisy. To never put myself in this position where I have to reason with her and she holds all the power. But it is fair to give her this chance. One last chance. She turns to look at me. I see her face and look in her eyes for the first time in a long while and I notice that she looks tired. I don't know much about Daisy's life apart from me but I know her job as a pediatrician can be exhausting. Coupled with caring for a child for five days a week, it must be tough. I don't know if she is dating. I realise I know nothing about her life. I don't know her. Then I remember Shane. I remember all he said. And I have to swallow the anger rising within me. "What does that have

"What does that mean, Daisy? Why won't you see or at least appreciate the effort I am putting in for our child's sake? Why would you want to make her life more complicated for nothing? What is all this for?" My anger and frustration simmers to the surface."It means I don't need your fucking apology. Not now. Not ever." Daisy turns to me and I am taken aback by the weakened look in her eyes. She is no longer scowling coldly and I don't know if I am seeing things, but her usually fierce eyes appear wet. I am so taken aback that I stare at her for a second too long and the moment gets broken when she angrily looks away, out the window again. "Daisy..." I start but she stops me with her palm raised up in my face. "Don't apologise, Zane. That half assed attempt is more infuriating than anything else you have ever done. Just. Don't." She says, her face is still turned away from me but her voice has gotten a semblance of strength, any traces of emotions is wiped clean off. "Okay." I say