Hated By My Hockey Alpha Mate のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 71 - チャプター 80

ASTRIDMy mind felt heavy and weighed down with everything that had happened. I was tired- so tired. I was officially done with trusting anyone that was not Justin, it did not get me anywhere anyways, all it brought was heartbreak and betrayal. I was seated on the bleachers, my knees pulled up to my chest, not far from where Justin could see me as he went to practice. A few time when my thoughts wanted to spiral out of control and my head wanted to remind me of what had happened, I would hear him in my mind, his voice and words thereby calming me down.“Don't think about thay asshole, baby. Think about me instead,” his voice echoed softly in my mind. The second I thought about him, a blush made its way to my face as I remembered what had happened last night in the shower. However, when practice started, Hunter sauntered into the field and my heart dropped the second I saw him. His eyes met mine and I felt like my breathe was knocked out of me. And once again I heard Justin’s voice

ASTRIDI thought I knew what pain was. I thought I had seen everything there was to see except death. But, maybe death would be a mercy compared to this, maybe it was the only way to stop all these from happening. Maybe Hunter was right to want to kill me. Maybe that would stop the endless spiral of pain and confusion and hurt I was drowning in. How could they have hidden this from me all these years? The people I trusted the most, the people who were supposed to love me unconditionally had built my life on a lie. No wonder they had been so quick to throw me aside the second I was locked up and left to it without a second thought. But the biggest question gnawing at me now was- did Justin know? Was he aware? Was he part of the deception? Could he have kept something this important from me, just like everyone else? I was sure his parents knew. The thought of him knowing tore through my chest as I stared at the picture on my phone, my vision blurring from the tears that were streaming

ASTRIDAs soon as I stepped into the house, I began to panic and looked about for any sign of life. Everywhere I looked, there were people I knew and others I had never seen before. As they hurried to me, their faces blended together and they started asking me endless questions about where I had been. But the blood was all I could think about, and that was all in my head. And that one person that I didn’t see. “Where is he?" With my voice hardly audible, I asked. I was filled with fear as I realized that I had no idea where he was or whether he was okay. I pushed past everyone and headed up the stairs, following the trail of blood as my heart raced and knot formed in my stomach. When the blood stopped, I threw open the door. I paused in the doorway, the sight in front of me bringing my whole world to a halt. In addition to having bandages all over his body and a pale, sweat covered face, Justin was unconscious as he laid in bed. His mother was beside him, her eyes swollen and re

ASTRIDBest news of the year. Hell, best news of my life. She loves me.Astrid, the girl who always made my heart race, who kept me awake at night, and haunted my thoughts whether she was around or not, had finally confessed to loving me back. I felt a raw, powerful feeling go through my veins as soon as she finished speaking. A high I hadn't felt in years. It was taking up all of my mental space, making the physical anguish I was experiencing seem unreal and distant. I forced myself up, scowling at the way the stitches were pulling at my flesh, ignoring the pulsating pain in my ribs. Astrid, always the worrier, immediately moved to get me to lay back down. She attempted to gently lead me back to the bed by saying, "Justin, you're still hurt." But I would have none of it. Grabbing her wrist, I pulled her in until she was inches from my face. I could smell her skin, that subtle aroma that always made me crazy, and I could feel the warmth of her breath. She made an effort to make me

ASTRID "It was- I…” I opened my mouth to respond, but then it hit me. It has actually been a while. I stared up at her, my eyes widening as a wave of terror and bewilderment passed over me. With my heart pounding, I muttered, "It can't be." “We have… well- it can’t be what I’m thinking right? I mean yes, we have done it a few times. Well a lot since that day but could I really be?” My heart was beating fast against my chest and the room bounced a little in my eyes. Goddess.She nodded knowingly. “There is a high chance,” she replied. “I have a few pregnancy test strips in the pack’s first aid kit downstairs. You stay put, I'll go and grab one for you.” I nodded in response.As she left the room, I felt my mind waving. This was exciting, but also terrifying. This was not the right time at all. A lot was still going on. Hunter was still out there. What if he found out? And school- oh my God, I still had two years left. How was I supposed to manage being pregnant and finishing school? I