Finding Casey のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 11 - チャプター 20

I keep visiting her.I keep going over any plan I can to help her get through this but the more I try, the more she closes the door on me and shuts herself away. I tried yesterday and she didn't even acknowledge me there so when I left, I took a flight to the nearest Airport near Arlington Cemetery, and I booked a motel room for a few nights. Visiting Oliver might help and hopefully I might get my answer here.I head over to the tombstone dressed in a suit and put down the roses I bought on the way here."Olly.I don't even know where to begin here. I bought you some flowers even though you'd probably want a beer, I pulled up here knowing I needed to speak to you and knowing it was an overdue situation.Casey isn't doing good, man. She's not happy without you here. Locking herself in her hospital room, she's been there for 3 months and refuses any treatment. Doctors keep telling her to try her therapy and try new things but she sits in the window and doesn't say a word. We were in th

The first photo in the album is of everyone. Sophie, who was only a little girl, stood in front of Casey and Oliver with big smiles on their faces. Their grandparents and aunts, uncles, and their mom and dad were standing behind them with proud expressions on their faces.You can see the tears in their mother's eyes, but it's a proud moment for her.They both looked so young. So happy and carefree. If only they knew what would happen if they had left before their last tour. Would they be doing something big? Travelling, office work, and training other people. All thoughts no one would ever know because they went to Africa as their last deployment."You looked so carefree there," I say as I point to her face in the first photo. She runs her fingers over her mom's and dad's faces before flipping to the next one. A photo of her and her brother looking at each other. I remember that being Joanna's profile picture on Facebook years ago. She has always been a proud mother. And their fathe

I feel her body here. Beside mine.I never had eyes for Casey Hamilton.I didn't want to view her as a woman who took my breath away. It made me weak in the knees. I didn't want to be here all the time.But I am here a lot of the time; I even called her Angel. I don't even know where it came from, but I came from somewhere, and I believe she doesn't mind.I do care about her, and I do want to see her. I do view her as this beautiful, independent, quiet woman who I think I am actually in love with.I was always told I had a playboy reputation in high school.I wouldn't mind "tapping it," as Jake would say, and I wouldn't. It stopped when I joined the military, as that became my love. It became my soul focus, and when I thought back on it, I spent so many years not bothering with sex, but the moment I left, the moment I turned myself back into civilian life, my lifestyle habits changed. Again.I'd go back out on a Friday night so I didn't have to sleep and listen to gunshots sounding of

Her body is covered in scars. Pain that had been inflicted on her, the reason she wore so many clothes, was because there wasn't a clear space on her body that didn't have a long jagged scar, a cigarette burn mark, or teeth marks. Seeing her body look like this only makes me angrier.Once the shower has rinsed off all the soap suds, I move her hair away from her shoulders and kiss each shoulder.Massaging her shoulders and listening to her comforting sigh, I keep massaging them until she says she's ready to get out."Come on, angel. Let's get you dry, and we can lay in bed and spin the TV around so we can watch Greys for a bit."After I got to the office, I messaged my mom to see where we were meeting, and she said it would now be 6 o'clock because Jake's got to head to a different state to collect 3 dogs with Trevor. Trevor is one of the teams that Jake works with, who trains dogs, gives them a new owner, helps the owners bond with their dogs, and also helps to ease the dog into new r

I stand in the doorway, staring at the family member who is staring back at me.Maria steps next to me and starts speaking to me."They've been here for a while. I am waiting for you to come out. I think your dad has only just sat down""What do I say to them?""Whatever you want. Come on, let's have a walk over there"We have a steady walk over, and while I walk, I look around me. I've never actually seen anything out here, so now that I can, I see how beautiful it all is. The sun is shining over us, and ahead is a nugget picnic that my mom probably did. She was always good at making buffet meals for parties."Casey is a little worried about today's events. She's just come out of a very tough therapy session. Please understand that she may not want to have millions of questions thrown her way. Enjoy your meals, and Casey, your medications will be ready for when you get back into your room," Maria says as she bids my family farewell.Zeke is standing in front of me, watching their mov