Semua Bab Feral Desires: Bab 81 - Bab 83

CLAUDETHE CUFFS CLICKED open.They took their time about it—one wrist, then the other—like it mattered now, like it would somehow make a difference after everything they’d already said to me.I didn’t move.Didn’t lower my arms.Didn’t speak.The burn where the metal had bitten into my skin pulsed faintly, but even that felt far away—like it belonged to someone else. Everything did. My body. My breath. The air I kept forcing into my lungs even though every inhale scraped like glass.They banned me.From seeing him.From touching him.From Nikolai.I stood there like a ghost in my own skin, listening to the silence stretch. No one spoke to me. No one looked at me. It was like once they’d ripped him from me, I stopped existing.Good. Let me vanish. Let me fall apart somewhere they can’t see.“Move.”A hand landed on my back. I flinched so hard it rattled my chest. But I moved. Legs stiff, joints barely bending, like I’d forgotten how to walk. Like my body was still back in that room, i

CLAUDEI WOKE UP choking on nothing.Air that was too thick caught in my throat like I’d swallowed glass in my sleep. I sat up too fast, chest heaving like I’d been drowning and only just remembered how to breathe.Nikolai.My hand reached out before I could stop it—searching for the space beside me. Cold. Always cold. He wasn’t there. I wasn’t there. I didn’t know if he was alive.I couldn’t get to him.Couldn’t reach anyone. Couldn’t get out. Couldn’t do a fucking thing but exist inside this rotting silence. This feeling that gutted me from the inside out.A growl sound crawled out of my throat. I shoved the sheets off like they burned, like I could shake it all off my skin too fast. Three months and nothing. Not a word. Not a whisper. Just the memory of his blood on my hands and the sound of my own screaming.I slammed my palms into the mattress. Pressed down. Hard. Like pressure might force the madness back into the hole I’d stuffed it in. It didn’t. My fingers curled into the she