Forbidden Desire:My Best Friend's Brother のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 31 - チャプター 40

[Kendall]Alberto and I play cards and sign while we’re playing.First, we talk about Marco.“We’re doing everything we can to find him,” he signs.“I know,” I sign back.“He’s like a ghost,” he comments, and I nod in agreement. It doesn’t take long for him to win three hands in a row and I curse out loud.He grins at me, gesturing to the cards as if to say we should play something else.I shake my head, and he looks at me for a long moment.“Do you have brothers and sisters?” he asks, clearly happy to have someone to communicate with.“None,” I answer. “You?”He nods his head.I smile a little. “I’m going to have a family, though. A baby,” I sign.Alberto’s eyes widen and he grins. “I love babies. I have three brothers and a sister, all younger.”We sign for a while longer, talking about his family and talking about my baby, and then Camden comes in the back door.Alberto stands, looking a little sad, and I stand up to hug him.“You made me feel very welcome,” he signs, and tears bur

CamdenI wake up again with a violent hangover and hate myself for drinking so much. I hate myself for what I said to Kendall, too, how roughly I made love to her. She doesn’t deserve to be treated that way, but it was like I was possessed. I’d felt like I needed to own her, like I needed to show everyone how she's mine.She’s carrying my baby, for god’s sake, how can she not be mine?So, there’s this part of me that feels like she is, that doesn’t want another man touching her, but there’s this part of me that wants to go back to my old life. That wants to go back to fucking three women a week, to not knowing any of their names the next week.That’s the life I’ve always lived. My safe life. A life without risk. Without hurt. And I can’t imagine living any other way.Or, rather, I couldn’t. Now I can easily imagine living with a beautiful woman who smiles at me, her hair mussed from sex first thing in the morning. That’s the problem. Now I know there’s another way, but I don’t know ho

Kendal“You don’t have to do anything,” I insist. “You can be as involved or uninvolved as you want to be.”“Of course I want to be involved!” he barks. “That’s my child you’re carrying.”I shrug. “Well, that’s up to you.”“I have a life to live, you know,” Camden says. “It’s not like I want to throw everything away just because—”“Just because you knocked me up?” I accuse, anger rising up in me. The food arrives and I take in a few deep breaths, trying to calm down.“Don’t be like that, Kendall,” Camden says, his voice calm. “We’ll figure something out.”“You’re right. We’ll figure out custody when the baby is born,” I say. “Until then, you don’t have to do anything.”“I want to go to appointments,” Camden insists. “I want to be involved in the pregnancy.”“Like I said, that’s up to you, Camden.” I pick at my fries, still feeling a little nauseous.We don’t talk for the rest of the meal, and when we get back into the car, I pretend to be dozing against the window because I’m fighting

Camden Carlo scoffs. “Some businessman in Chicago happened to her when she was on a trip out there. They ran away together. But I have to admit it was at least half my fault.”“How’s that?” I ask. I don’t know very much about Kendall’s home life, and I can’t help being curious. I want to know more about her, and I tell myself it’s because she’s the mother of my child.Carlo shrugs. “I took her for granted. Ran around on her, didn’t care which mistresses I rubbed in her face. I got too caught up in the wiseguy lifestyle, you know?”I swallow hard. This is beginning to sound really familiar.“But she left you for another man. Aren’t you bitter?”Carlo looks at me for a long moment. “I’m not bitter that she left me for someone else.” He pauses. “I’m bitter that she left Kendall. That little girl didn’t deserve to lose her mother.”I promise myself in that moment that I will never leave my child like that. No matter what happens between me and Kendall, I will be part of that child’s life

Kendall “Because I knew that you would act like this! I knew that you’d hate it,” I try to explain, taking in deep breaths and feeling dizzy. I don’t want to lose her friendship but I also want to stand up for myself. I want to stand up for Camden.“Camden is going to break your heart, honey,” Elora says softly. “That’s why I don’t want you with him.”He already did, I think, but I don’t say it, gritting my teeth and fighting back tears.“That’s my problem.” I sigh. “Look, I’m sorry I didn’t tell you,” I say finally, my voice shaking. “But I have a right to be happy, and I want this baby.”Elora looks at me for a long moment and then stalks out of the door, shutting it behind her. I sigh again. Elora can be a bit of a brat, but I hope that she comes around. After all, I want her to be the aunt this baby deserves.I try to calm down, taking deep breaths, and then I follow her out into the hallway. She’s not there, but I hear yelling coming from Camden's room and I roll my eyes.I d