All Chapters of Love Him, Die For Him: Chapter 1 - Chapter 10

10 Chapters

Chapter 1

Over the past month, Benjamin Zoller frequently used the excuse of being busy with work to avoid seeing me. Even his replies to my texts were taking longer than usual.An uneasy feeling brewed in my heart. I was itching to find out directly from him. As I was about to head out, however, I received a call from an unfamiliar number."Is this Ms. Sloane? I am a doctor from Jadeview Hospital."The voice on the other end continued, "Are you Benjamin Zoller's girlfriend? He was diagnosed with stomach cancer about a month ago but is refusing to undergo treatment. Could you try to persuade him to come to the hospital? If we take action now, there's still a chance for a cure..."As the doctor's words floated into my ear, my head started to spin. I almost collapsed.This must be why Benjamin had been avoiding me. He must have been trying to conceal the heartbreaking news.Overcome with grief, I choked back tears while promising the doctor I would talk to him. Immediately after, I rushed to

Chapter 2

My first encounter with Benjamin was rather embarrassing.I was about to leap off a bridge when he grabbed me and flung me to the ground.He locked eyes with me. Instead of urging me to be strong like others might, he told me something entirely different. He said that the person I loved would always live in my heart from then on. With every beat, it was proof that we were both fighting to live.He said I didn't have to let go of the past to move forward.Like others carried dreams, I could carry my love deep within me. Each day I lived would be another step closer to the one I had lost.After that, worried I might try to take my life again, he stayed by my side. No matter how much I ignored him, he never complained.Under his tender loving care, I gradually stepped out of the inferno of grief. He helped me find the courage to walk back into the light.That was the second year after we'd met.Not long later, he confessed his feelings to me. He said that he loved me with utmost c

Chapter 3

It was close to midnight when Benjamin finally came home.He pushed the door open and entered. When he saw me sitting on the couch staring blankly into space, he seemed a little surprised."Cherilyn, why haven't you gone to bed yet?"I turned to face him with my tear-streaked cheeks.I raised my phone and replied, my voice trembling, "I got a call from the hospital today."I paused, then continued, "Whatever the doctor said about you..." My voice faltered. "Is it true, Benjamin?"Before I finished my sentence, large teardrops rolled down my cheeks again.Stunned at that sight, Benjamin immediately walked up to me. He wrapped his arms around me gently, patting my shoulder lightly."Don't cry, my love. I'm okay."Perhaps guilt was eating at him, but his voice carried a faint tremor."Life and death are inevitable... Maybe I used up all my luck meeting you in this lifetime, and now it's time to pay it back."Being with you has left me with no regrets. Please don't be too sad—I

Chapter 4

Benjamin was quick to jump into action. The very next day, he managed to get himself admitted into the intensive care unit.A few of his friends dropped by to help him move some of his personal belongings. I watched them laugh and joke with each other like it was a normal day. No one expressed a hint of sorrow over Benjamin's supposedly terminal condition.A charming, lively girl stood at the foot of his bed, pouting."You said you would go to the bar with me for a drink tonight. You're not breaking that promise, are you?" she complained.He returned a faint smile."Why are you always going to bars and drinking? You're a young woman—what would others think of you?"The girl scrunched her brows in annoyance."So what? Didn't you say you would marry me if no one wanted me?"Benjamin abruptly grabbed her hand and lightly slapped it."Don't bring that up ever again. I have a girlfriend now. If she hears this, it could cause a misunderstanding."She crossed her arms."You mean th

Chapter 5

An innocent expression was sprawled all over his face, but my eyes caught a message from someone named "Baby" on his phone."You'll go out drinking with me tonight. Or else, I'll ignore you forever!"I smiled faintly."I understand. She's probably just upset about coming back to such terrible news."As he nodded in satisfaction, I snapped a photo of the edge of his hospital bed and posted it to the new social media account I'd just created.The caption read, "Day one of treatment. Watching my boyfriend look so fragile in his hospital bed tears me apart. Why is the world so unfair? Why am I forced to face such a cruel separation? I hope with all my heart that he recovers. I'm not ready to lose him."I stayed by his side the whole day, caring for him with my entire being.By evening, I was sitting by the window reading. Meanwhile, he kept glancing at his phone, his impatience growing.I didn't have to ask—it was definitely his "Baby" throwing a tantrum again.As I continued to f

Chapter 6

I sat in Benjamin's hospital room, reading yet another contemporary romance book. It was then that the memories of Benjamin's confession flooded in.That day, my father—who had ignored my whole existence since birth—flew into a rage. It was unacceptable for him that I was in a relationship with the notorious playboy Benjamin Zoller. He demanded I cut ties with him immediately.He said that if his only daughter were seen fooling around with an illegitimate child like Benjamin, it would bring him shame.I looked at him, unbothered."You don't even care about me. You're only upset because it hurts your reputation."My mother died giving birth to me, yet you've never once visited her grave. You showed not an ounce of care when my ex-boyfriend passed away. Now, when I've finally found a shred of happiness, you swoop in and expect me to sacrifice it for your pride. What gives you the right?"We got into a rather heated argument and ended up severing ties.That day, I was consumed by g

Chapter 7

For three days in a row, Benjamin stayed obediently in the hospital. This seemed to frustrate Gigi, who reached out to me on social media."Are you the reason Benjamin isn't coming out? Have you been clinging tight to him?"Her boldness left me speechless."He's sick. He doesn't even need me clinging to him. Besides, he's my boyfriend. What does it have to do with you whether I cling to him or not?"In response, she sent me a picture of a tattoo on the inside of her arm. It was of two little figures nestled together, kissing in their embrace."Benjamin and I got this together. Of course, it has something to do with me."I looked at the design and recalled seeing something similar on Benjamin's arm at the beach.When I'd asked him about it, he'd told me that it was the two of us.It turned out to be a complete lie after all.Meanwhile, Gigi continued to provoke me over chat."You haven't been with him for long, so you might not know our story. The only reason Benjamin and I di

Chapter 8

The day before I was to set my plan into action, I visited the cemetery to say one last goodbye to my mother.Perhaps she and Samuel were the only people on earth who had ever shown me what true warmth felt like, albeit fleeting.To truly become a strong person, I knew I would first have to learn to love myself.I sighed, mustering all my courage to make the call. But just then, an unexpected call from Gigi came through.I picked up the call and immediately heard suggestive sounds and Benjamin laughing on the other end of the line."I love you, Benjamin Zoller!" she yelled out triumphantly.Knowing her intention in pushing my buttons, I swallowed the revulsion I felt and hung up the call. I then sent Benjamin the photo of the tattoo I had previously saved."Gigi told me all about your relationship. I'll be waiting for you by the bridge."When he arrived, I was standing at the edge of the bridge.His voice was panicked. "Cherilyn, what are you trying to do? Please, don't do any

Chapter 9

Before Gigi could speak further, Benjamin grabbed her by the arm and cupped a hand over her mouth and nose.He looked at me again, pleading."Cherilyn, why don't you come down here? We can talk it out. There's still a chance to fix this."I smiled wryly."Benjamin, when I loved you the most, you were busy deceiving and toying with me. That kind of betrayal leaves me utterly hopeless.""I can't accept an ending like this, so I've decided to leave you. I don't want anything to do with you any longer."You saved my life once, and now it's time for me to give it back."I caught the rage in Gigi's eyes. I knew that after tonight, there would be no chance for the two of them to reconcile.Exposing their affair now would only amplify Benjamin's guilt over my death. That was the precise torment I wanted him to endure.Casting one final glance at the camera, I held my breath and clumsily leaped into the gushing river below.Beforehand, I had scheduled posts to appear on my "Cancer War

Chapter 10

The following year, I received a call from my father out of the blue.He told me he was gravely ill with little time left to live. He wanted me to come and spend some time with him.I rejected his wishes without giving it a second thought."When I was drowning in agony, you turned a blind eye to me. Now, you're expecting me to waste my time and energy fulfilling your demands? Life doesn't work that way."There was an extended silence on the other end of the line before he croaked out a hoarse apology.I hung up without another word.His apology was but a rug under which he could sweep his wrongdoings. From the moment he made those choices, he should have known he wouldn't be forgiven.A sudden wave of longing for my mother hit me. On a whim, I decided to visit her grave.On my way, I chatted with the cab driver about further updates on Benjamin.It turned out the incident had become a nationwide sensation. Regretting his actions, Benjamin had gone mad searching up and down for

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