A Male Mate For The Homophobic Alpha のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 41 - チャプター 50

ALPHA NATE This couch is so uncomfortable but I guess this is the price I have to pay for kissing Blake, I can't believe that I kissed him. "What the hell possessed me?" That was a stupid move, very stupid.I can't wait to go back to Raphael because I need him to advise me on what to do, how do I handle the situation before it blows off in my face... I mean I know that our three months agreement is over and I am supposed to reject him but it doesn't feel like the right thing to do. The agreement was that I will reject him after three months if he fails to make me fall in love with him and if I am being honest, I am not exactly sure if I won or not.I don't think I am in love with him but I don't feel like I did when I first met him, I fucking kissed him and that's something I wouldn't have done three months ago. "But does that mean that I am in love? With him?" Hell no, that's a disaster.I can't be in love with him, maybe I am just to used to him which is why I need to keep my dista

ALPHA NATE "Good morning Alpha." Olivia greeted immediately she saw me, what is she even doing up and outside by this time of the day, is she training as well?""Morning Olivia, how was your night?" I asked as I signaled for Jake to leave, there is no need for him to wait around."My night was okay but it could have been better." She responded and I instantly regretted asking her, I forgot that she's a chatterbox. "At first my night was going fine, I mean the party was really nice but what I loved the most was the fact that we had time to talk, it was really fun but then I brought your food to your office but one guy collected it from me saying that you are busy." Oh fuck me, isn't she tired of talking. "Honestly I was upset that he stopped me from seeing you but it's fine, I slept well and I even dreamt of..." I blocked her out.Oh my goodness, who told her that I am interested in listening to her dreams, who cares? I just need to get to my training and carry on with my day... The o

BLAKE I am so exhausted of all the mixed signals that I am getting from Nate, one minute he acts like he wants me and the next minute, he acts like he doesn't... He practically begged me to stay at his place because he was worried about my health and he said he wanted to make sure that I am okay before he let's me go.Then he discovered that I was getting sick because I was finally going to transform and then he helped me through the process. Yes I was in immense pain but I didn't miss how worried he was, it's very obvious that he cares about me but he keeps pretending and I don't know why.He unexpectedly gave me my first kiss and then he disappeared on me, I don't get it. Why is it so difficult for him to accept that he is in love with me? I asked for three months and it worked but last night, he still asked space and more time. "He is driving me crazy." He asked me to give him space and then he went ahead to fight for me today.He transformed into his wolf form out of the blue and

ALPHA NATE Where I really need to go right now is to go and see Raphael but Jake said Frank and Oliver wants to see me, so I have to go to the office and by the time I will be done, it will be too late to go and see Raphael, I don't want a repeat of what happened the last time I visited him. I need to go as early as possible because I have a lot of shit he needs to help me with... I can as well just go ahead and reject him so that everybody can finally rest but it feels like an impossible task to do.It doesn't feel right and even if it's right, I can't seem to hurt him like that. My wolf gets so crazy when he is in pain, like today when Benjamin wanted him dead, like a few minutes ago when he was crying and like the day he had his first transformation, so I can't afford to hurt him intentionally, I don't think I will be able to leave with myself if I do."Maybe Blake is right, maybe I am in love with him." I said just as I entered my office. "Or maybe the moon goddess is just messi

ALPHA NATE "Hehehe, are you kidding. That's fucking good, gosh I am so happy for you man. Wow that's good news, why do you need to be so dramatic about everything. Moon goddess thank you, finally." He said excitedly while laughing in between. "For a minute there you scared me, I thought you were going to say something terrible happened. Do you know for how long I have been hoping and praying for you to find your mate? Wow, this is fucking awesome, we should celebrate." He said as he poured us more drinks.He tried to make a toast with me but when he realized that I didn't make any move, he realized that something was wrong. "Wait, you found your mate and it's not good news?" He asked curiously."Let me guess, you don't like her because she's not as sexy as you hoped for, she doesn't have massive ass and boobs?" He asked curiously.I wish that was the problem because then it could have been easily fixed, you know with a surgery or any related methods but In this case, how do I fix him