Lahat ng Kabanata ng Love Makes Me Wanna Be a Killer: Kabanata 61 - Kabanata 70

Finally, the police requested permission from the hospital to carefully break down the door, so as not to make any loud noises that would disturb the patients, as the hospital's keys were not working.The door opened, and a small scratch managed to cut Hazel's neck.“I'm not joking about my threat,” Bella said.Eric kept thinking of a way to save Hazel. If Bella moved her hand even slightly, the wound on Hazel's neck would widen. He was almost losing his patience, seeing the blood flowing from Hazel's neck.Hazel kept her eyes closed, enduring the pain, preparing to die if no one could save her. She considered attacking Bella by kicking or elbowing her stomach.But that would move Bella's hand, which would only hurt her more.“Say it, Zia. In prison with me, or die?” Bella whispered.Hazel had no energy left to respond to Bella’s words. Bella’s elbow kept pressing against her chest, making it hard to breathe. Her legs trembled, barely able to hold her up in that position, and she fear

“I’m releasing you from your responsibility to take care of me, Eric,” Hazel said.Though it was hard and she had some doubts about living without Eric’s help, Hazel had decided to do it for Eric’s future happiness. Let him live with the person he loves. Hazel, on the other hand, had no desire to feel love right now. It wasn’t that Hazel no longer believed in love. She simply no longer believed in herself, thought that she could ever receive the kind of love that was good for her. To her, it felt impossible. She believed the one thing that could make her want to kill someone was the very love she once felt. And besides, she wasn’t ready to fall in love again.“You’ve decided to get back together with James?” Eric asked suddenly.“Oh, please. I still want him dead, Eric. How could I possibly want to live with him again?” Hazel burst out laughing, finding Eric’s question a little ridiculous.Eric gave a slight nod, hesitant and unsure. He found it hard to believe Hazel’s words, especi

“What do you mean?” James looked incredulous at what he heard coming out of Hazel's mouth.There was a hint of disappointment when Hazel so easily asked him to prove his love with death. All James wanted was to live with Hazel.“I said, prove your love with death,” Hazel repeated her words firmly.There was no desire left to see James, not even as a shadow. Hazel thought they were truly done with each other. Even if James tried to interfere with Hazel's life, Hazel didn't know it would go that far.Thinking about continuing to live in a body that four men, filled with shame, had sexually abused, Hazel sometimes still felt disgusted with her own body. Now, James was making Hazel even more unwilling to live in that body.“But, Zia. All I want is to live with you.” James pleaded.This time, Eric didn’t do much, letting James hear Hazel’s response to his feelings, even though he still wanted to drag James away from her.“It will only hurt me,” Hazel said.“I will make you happy, I promise

“HAZEL, ERIC! CAN YOU HEAR ME?”Eric woke up when he heard several shouts from outside, the doorbell ringing continuously, and someone banging on the door incessantly. When he glanced at the clock on the wall, it was only four in the morning, and he was already being disturbed like this.“Why is it so loud, Eric?” Hazel asked, also waking up.“Let's just ignore it.” Eric pulled Hazel into his arms and kissed her forehead several times.Love made Eric not care who was disturbing them at that early hour. He just wanted to enjoy being together with Hazel after what had happened between them.A few moments later, the disturbance at the door disappeared. But it moved to Eric's phone, then Hazel's phone as well.“I'll answer it.” Hazel, who was starting to feel very annoyed, decided to pick up the call.“Who is it?” Eric asked as Hazel took her phone.“Bianca,” Hazel replied.Eric pressed his ear against the side of Hazel's phone, intending to eavesdrop.“What's going on, Bianca?” Hazel ask

Accompanied by Bianca and Eric, Hazel came to James's house to pay her respects. The news of James's death shocked everyone, especially Hazel, who had only met James a few days earlier.All of James's extended family gathered in tears. Hazel didn't greet any of them because she felt awkward and afraid that her presence might make James's family angry, thinking that Hazel was the cause of James's death.“You saw James first,” Eric whispered.Hazel nodded slowly and went to the coffin, where James was already prepared to be taken to the funeral with Bianca.Meanwhile, Eric came to greet Mr. Alexander on Hazel's behalf, as she was undoubtedly feeling awkward and afraid of being blamed by James's family.“Are you okay, Hazel?” Bianca asked when she noticed Hazel hadn't taken her eyes off James's body.Hazel nodded slowly. “Why should I be okay?” she whispered.“Don't you feel any loss?”“No. From the beginning, James wasn't mine, and I wasn't his.”Bianca smiled faintly, understanding how