Claimed by the Ruthless Wolf Slayer のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 161 - チャプター 170

ALEXANDERI come inside like a man who thinks the walls might solve the noise in his head if he backs into them hard enough. The pack house is quieter than usual this night. I couldn’t see any of the workers, not even the guards you would sometimes see in some hallways. But I know they are listening. I can hear the way they pretend to breathe without trying to hear me. It used to be comforting. Now it feels like a courtroom and I am the defendant.The scent finds me the second I push the door. It rides the air and clings to the woodwork, nests in the shadow behind the drapes. My fingers curl on the door handle until the knuckle bone hurts. I want to rip the house down, tear out the floorboards, burn everything until the smell is the only thing left of me.Ayda is waiting in the sitting room. She always is there when the rest of the pack refuses to show their faces.She looks small on the chair, but her eyes are calm in the way of storms. When she stands the room changes temperature. S

ALEXANDERI stare at the white ceiling above the bed, my thoughts running wild like a wolf during a full moon. I can’t catch a single one but I’m aware they are there.I didn’t need anyone to tell me I wouldn’t be getting any sleep that night. And a silent voice in my head whispers, ‘if I’d listened to Ayda and let her fully unravel whatever thoughts I was having, I wouldn’t be in this situation now’. I silenced that thought and rolled over on the bed again until I’m staring out the dark window.A deep inhale has vanilla tickling my senses. I inhaled another deep whiff and exhaled it in a huff. After accepting I couldn’t get rid of it, I’ve settled on accepting it and just letting it be. It was either that or losing my mind and I can’t afford the latter right now.The image from earlier burns itself in the back of my eyes. That scent, her silhouette. I knew her too much to doubt if it was her I was seeing. I just didn’t know when that happened. If not a few days ago that we went there

ALEXANDER The come down from my high is like a slow roll.As the haze of lust and arousal starts to clear, more things become apparent. Not just the crackling reality that I'm alone.It's the fact that I could hear her heavy breathing next to me. Could almost feel her post climax warmth wrap all around me. She loves to cuddle after sex and I somehow started to crave wrapping my arms around her body and watching her fall asleep after I’ve fucked her to delirium. That feeling is there now. Somehow.A part of me knows she's not really here but I'm still grasping at home with greedy and desperate fingers.It’s madness. I know it is. Yet the more I fight it, the stronger it becomes. The scent thickens, the ghost of her voice c

ALEXANDERThe morning light spills through the high windows in the council hall. The room feels larger than usual. Even colder. For a fleeting second, I let myself think of why I’m always taking note of that specific thing. Why the hell everywhere seems colder than usual.The hall quietens as I walk in through the door, taking the long route to the floor.I find Ryker standing by the side of the long table, talking low to one of the guards. The rogue is already inside, bound and kneeling, his wrists pressed together with silver cuffs that burn faintly against his skin. I can smell the sting of it, the metallic tang laced with the scent of sweat clings to them along with his fear.The closer I get, the louder the pounding in my chest becomes which almost makes my knees buckle. I ball my hands into tight fists and force myself to say upright.It shouldn’t be like this. This is routine. I’ve chaired dozens of these trials — some harsher, some messier but this time, my body feels too awar

ALEXANDER“And why should I help you now?” Ayda’s arms are crossed and legs are crossed.She looks at the picture of relaxation and peace of mind. When I found her in the dining room that evening, it felt like a beam of spotlight was shining down on her, ‘the answer to all my problems’ written boldly above her head. After that image I saw of Alina, I knew she was sending me a message somehow. That I’m getting closer to finding her.I mind linked Ryker when I finally got my brain to right and asked him to do everything he can to get all that rogue knows out of him. He clearly knows something and I’m unfortunately not in the right state of mind to question him. But if anyone can get him to talk, then Ryker is that person. I trust him with my life.I came out, ready to go for a walk or continue trying to play around with my memories when I found her. And I asked her to do whatever she had in mind, as long as I could remember everything, and where I left Alina. How I left Alina, specifica