Lahat ng Kabanata ng Poison Magic: Fantasy Collection: Kabanata 61 - Kabanata 70

I don't know what it was about Trey's little talk, but I haven't been able to get up from the floor for the last 10 minutes. His words keep echoing in my head like a nightmare I can't wake up from. It hurts, and I know he didn't mean it to, but it does. I guess facing my own mistakes is its own kind of hell.I let my tears flow, but I kept my sobs in check. My back pressed up against my door. I don't want him to hear me cry. I'm not sure who I'm crying for anyway. Am I crying for Knox and the way I've been treating him today? Like someone who doesn't deserve a chance to change? A chance at redemption? Or am I crying for me? Because I don't deserve him, even if he did change his ways.I could feel Trey on the other side. I knew he was worried about me, but he was also worried about his friend. I don't blame him for that. Everyone seemed to have been on my side today, but no one was there for Knox. And, yeah he's a guy, but he has feelings too. And Storm... he was hurting, even if I did

“Baby, don’t be like that! I’m really sorry! I did talk to her... well, I yelled at her. I told her I didn’t want anything to do with her!” he insisted. “Nadia, please?” he whispered, completely broken. “You gotta know, this isn’t my fault. I don’t want her! She’s obsessed with me, but I-”“Knox, I don’t care. You can hang around every hussy in the damn school for all I care. That’s who you are. You have needs. But I can’t be around you when they start attacking me for no reason,” I grumbled before I could think better of it. I can't believe I said that! I'm such a freaking bitch! I was being judgemental and bitter.“Is that how you really see me?” Knox asked quietly. The look on his face will haunt me forever. Why didn't I take the time to really look at him instead of just spouting whatever was in my head?“How else am I supposed to see you? I’ve seen the girls you bring home. Phoebe tells me about everything. You will never be satisfied with a girlfriend. You need variety, I suppos

So when my alarm finally sounds, I feel like hell. This was not how I was supposed to feel this morning. It will be draining on my magic the more I stress. Now I feel dirty inside and that will also contaminate my magic. My magic is supposed to be healing and cleansing (Trey has offence and defense to his magic because the guard has taught him how to manipulate his magic that way) and now I don't know how I'm supposed to make it through my mission.I guess I'll have to ask Chloe for help. Her magic is also nature based like mine... which was why the twins would've been a good match for me. But I'm just not feeling it. Everything inside me feels so wrong right now. I'm tired and cranky... nothing like I normally am.I take a quick shower and dress in a pair of jeans and a tee shirt. I'm going into the forest after all. I am not going to be impressing anyone with my outfits.Finally, I stuff my backpack with snacks and water bottles. I don't know how long I'll be gone, but I know I'll g

The moment we enter the car I get nervous and awkward... which is not what I want. I take a deep breath and try to send a smile to Knox. I can do this. I can be normal around him. We've known each other our whole lives. There is no reason for us not to act normal. I don't have to be weird just because he gave me a hug that could melt my bones with sweetness.Before the silence becomes too much for me, I turn on my car and point it toward the forest. The car hums as we roll down the road past the houses and shops of the little town. We pass the farm land and finally we make it out to the middle of nowhere forest land. I'm not sure what I'm looking for exactly, but I'm sure I'll know it when I see it."Shimmers, I know you don't want to talk yet, and I'll respect that, but you need to let me explain about Bianca," he insists. There is something in his voice that is pleading for me to listen to what he has to say to me. I'm not sure why this is so important for him, but that's probably w

The car spins off the road and finally comes to a stop. We don't move. We don't make a sound, other than the heavy panting of us trying to catch our breath.My entire body is in shock. I'm shaking and freaking out. Slowly, I move my eyes to look over at Knox, who is already staring at me with wide worried eyes.Knox quickly unbuckles the both of us and pulls me into his arms. I can't stop myself from leaning into him. I need his strength right now. I need him. I don't want to be in anyone else's arms right now, just his. "Knox, I'm so scared," I whisper into his chest."I've got you baby. I'm not going to let anything happen," he promises, pressing his lips to the side of my throat. "We'll be fine. I'm right here. I won't let you go." He nuzzles his face into mine and breathes me in. I'm wondering if he's as scared as I am?The words are reassuring and comforting. They are not harsh and condemning. Nothing about me losing control of my car on absolutely nothing and us almost dying on