FORGIVENESS I DIDN'T PLANAnne's POVForgiveness, I had come to understand, was not a single act. It was a series of decisions — some made consciously, some made without being entirely aware that you were making them, until one day you reached into the place where the anger had been and found it had grown quieter than you remembered leaving it. With Evie, forgiveness had arrived with a new understanding of blood to accelerate it. With Eleanor, it arrived more slowly, over several weeks that felt at first like ongoing resistance.The complication, and I was honest with myself about this, was Michael. Not because Eleanor was Michael. She had done nothing wrong, had been party to none of what he had done, had been a child given away before she was old enough to form a memory of a family she had lost. The rational part of me understood all of this with perfect clarity. The less rational part of me — the part that had carried the weight of what Michael had caused in my life — found Eleanor
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