THE FIRST MONTH~ANYA POV~They don't tell you that motherhood, at least in the beginning, is just a long, hallucination-inducing blur of bone-deep exhaustion.I'd been back in my tiny attic room for three days, and honestly, I felt more like a ghost than a woman. Marcello was barely a week old, and he seemed to have one setting: screaming. He cried when he was hungry, he cried when he was wet, and sometimes, he just cried because the air in the room felt too still.I hadn't slept in forty-eight hours. My hair was a matted knot at the base of my neck, my shirt was stained with leaked milk, and every time I closed my eyes, I saw the ceiling of that clinic spinning."Please, Marcello," I whispered, my voice cracking as I swayed back and forth in the middle of the room. "Just for twenty minutes. Let Mommy close her eyes."He didn't listen. He just turned a deeper shade of red and let out a shriek that felt like it was drilling into my skull. I sank onto the floor, squeezing him to my
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