THE ALPHA KING'S STRIPPER MATE의 모든 챕터: 챕터 51 - 챕터 60

Camilla POVHis cold blue eyes pierced through me to such an extent that I felt extremely small and exposed in front of him. Those eyes roamed across my face, but there was no response from him, and my shoulders slumped. Hope started slipping away from my grasp as his response wasn't forthcoming.I was already resigned to my fate, my face heated up, and embarrassment gnawed at my insides.Why did I have to tell him that? Maybe he'll think I am asking too much. Why did I even think for a fraction of a second that he would ever care about how I want my first time to go?I mean, we don't even love each other.What if he says no? What would I do?Nothing. Just give him what he wants and move on.My subconscious reminded me. My mind braced for his rejection, but in the blink of an eye, my mood took a sour turn.I was already sad, but nothing prepared me for the pain that hit me, almost knocking me to the ground, and then for some weird reason, the thought of rejection coming from him made

Camilla POVThey dropped me off as promised, and I dragged myself to my room; my mind had successfully gone numb.But the shock from his response to my last question was still eating me up the longer I mulled over it.Was I even ready for that?Was I ready for all the husband and wife expectation?Necessary and unnecessary doubt crept into my mind; my head was full, with nothing but doubt, anger, fear, more doubt, and a pounding ache.I shrugged off my clothes and lazily walked into the bathroom; I had tried to push everything to the back of my mind.It's one of my strongest forts; anytime I was going through a tough time, I put them in a basket, locked it, and pushed it to the back.If I didn't think about it, it wouldn't disturb me.But it wasn't working for me this time; every time I put them in a basket, before I even lock it, they spill out through the opening.A subtle reminder of what I tried to forget.The sound of the water dropping successfully blocked out the outside world,

Camilla POV“No, I am not doing that.” He peeled my fingers off him and cupped my tear-stained face instead. “Look at me, Camilla. You did what you had to do. You did what you thought was right at that moment so no…I am not hitting you or calling you names.” He gave me a warm smile, his tender eyes holding my gaze.I sniffled as he proceeded to wipe my tears; warm feelings slowly pooled in my chest, but somewhere deeper, in the pit of my stomach, lies that lingering doubt, still peeping and glaring at me.“You're saying I made the right decision?” The question bubbled in my throat and was out before I could stop it.“Yes, you did.” He responded without any hesitation in his tone, “And I am not telling you this because I love that guy or something, and I am not saying it just to make you feel good… no, I am telling you this Camilla because you're brave, strong and the most badass bitch I have ever had the privilege of knowing. You never run away from your fight…unlike me.” He murmured

Camilla POV“Why?” was the only word that left my lips; my heart was torn apart the more I looked at the circular, “Why would you put yourself in danger? He could have killed you.” I blinked my tears away.Breaking down right here was not what I wanted; I had enough crying yesterday to last me a lifetime.“I am sorry, Camilla, but I couldn't sit still while he's manipulating you into something that you don't want. So after I left your dorm yesterday, the nagging feeling in my chest kept rising, so I had to at least try to do something.” “But I didn't want you to do anything. He could have killed you.” My voice broke, reflecting my fear as I remembered what happened to Roger. “You shouldn't have confronted him.” “I couldn't. It didn't sit right with me, so I had to do it.” “WHY? I NEVER ASKED YOU TO DO ANYTHING OF THAT SORT. WHY WOULD YOU RISK YOUR LIFE TO FIGHT WITH LANDON? HAVE YOU LOST IT?” I yelled, turning to look at him, my anger getting the best of me.Those words left my mout

Camilla POV“Shall we?” Coach motioned to the door, and we all followed him out.Patrick nodded at me, his eyes raking my body, making me uncomfortable, and I moved closer to Landon, without meaning to.We were standing outside the locker room; Coach looked from Patrick to Landon before clearing his throat, winking at me.“Patrick, I already told you about our amiable captain, Landon Merrill. He's a good one, and his records even showed it, and I hope this convinces you enough.”Convince him? Landon and I shared a confused look before his attention moved back to Patrick, his nose wrinkling.“Landon, this is Patrick Giordano. He's our as a potential investor for the upcoming game. “Not yet. I am still thinking about it. Honestly, he hasn't convinced me enough.” Patrick interrupted, eyeing me up and down. “But I have heard a lot about you, Mr. Merrill.” He stretched out his hand to Landon, but his eyes didn't move from me.I was squirming under his gaze, shifting from one foot to the o